You broke off with your abusive, emotionally detached partner. You’re in disbelief that the man who claimed to love you more than life itself, could mistreat you so horribly. You’re overwhelmed by a roller-coaster of intense emotions; denial, fear, anger, guilt and sorrow.
Your mental state is worse than what you think because you have been emotionally traumatized.
Every day it takes monumental effort for you to get out of bed. You go to work and you go through the motions of a being a breathing, functional human being. You avoid phone calls and you turn down invitations from your friends. You try to care for your young children but you have no love to give because you’re numb inside. You turn to a bottle of wine, meds or food to momentarily sedate your insufferable emotional pain.
At the end of the day, you crawl under the covers into a place of dark despair.
You know in your core his deceit, infidelity and battering were destroying you and you’re trying to move on with your life. Nevertheless, weeks, months or even a year pass, and despite his horrific abuse, you long and ache to be him.
Your misplaced feelings of love, loyalty and commitment compound your traumatic experience.
12 Signs you have been traumatized by a hurtful relationship:
1) You have emotional outbursts.
You succumb to frequent meltdowns and you cry at the drop of a pin. You direct your unwarranted anger onto your family and friends. It’s a sign of distress and pent-up anger.
2) You’re lethargic.
You can barely stay awake in the daytime. You sleep around the clock or you have insomnia and you need medication to fall asleep at night. You have reoccurring nightmares about him and the events of his abuse.
3) You have flashbacks.
Sights, sounds and smells, e.g.: a telephone ring, the scent of his cologne or seeing the model of his car drive down the road, abruptly trigger your fear of him and intensify your separation grief.
4) You isolate yourself.
You’re fatigued; you mope around the house in your pajamas and you let your appearance go. Except for going to work, you hole up in your home and you avoid interaction with your family and friends.
5) You’re in shock.
You have panic attacks, racing heartbeat and severe anxiety. Your appetite is decimated, your weight may drop drastically, your hair may fall out and you may even contract shingles. You may have thoughts of suicide.
6) You can’t concentrate.
Depression overtakes you and your mind shuts down. You’re unable to focus on your work, small tasks or your daily life in general. Your mind is protecting you by going somewhere else in your head.