Toxic Love: Signs To Identify If You Are In A Trauma Bond

Toxic Love: Signs To Identify If You Are In A Trauma Bond

A trauma bond will hold you emotionally captive through intense physical and emotional abuse experiences with a toxic person.

When you are trauma bonding it is easy to mistake abuse as love and not let go

Emotional abuse is often mistaken for love by those who are trapped in a cycle of abuse in their relationship. Trauma is surprisingly easy to overlook when the abuse masquerades as someone “caring” for you.

Trauma bonding is a problem that many people trapped in abusive relationships don’t realize they’re experiencing because mental abuse often beats you down into ignoring various types of trauma as love.

When you’re holding out to be loved, you can easily become drawn to an abusive relationship and misread the signs as love instead of abuse. So, how do you know if you are truly in love or caught in a blinding fantasy due to trauma bonding?


Is it real love or abuse due to an emotional trauma bond?

Have you ever fell in love hard and fast, but then it all came crashing down with abusive behavior? Did you feel surprised that it was hard to break away from toxic love?

Real love doesn’t always hit so hard, nor so fast. Real love is steady and grows slowly when you get to know the real person. Whereas, being attached through a trauma bond can feel magnetic and captivating, when you are feeling lost love for someone. But, this is not real love, its attachment through the wound.

Trauma bonding refers to the attachment bond that is created through repeated abusive or traumatic childhood experiences with the caregiver, whereby this relationship pattern becomes internalized as a learned pattern of behavior for attachment.

If you experienced abuse from a caregiver who also loved you, then you learned to associate love with abuse. This became the template for how you learned to relate to others and form relationships. So, you expect that in order to feel loved you get abused. Abuse feels like love, and often many become attached to their abusers to feel loved in this way. This is how it works.

Imagine you were abused for being noncompliant as a child, so you are left feeling abandoned and unworthy. In order to attach to the abuser, you learned to meet their needs and make them happy and you received love and approval. This became your equation for love. So, you learned to please your abuser in order to receive the love you wanted.

If you were abused as a child, you protected your relationship with the parent by preserving the notion of the ‘good parent’, pushing down feelings of anger or hurt towards your parent in order to feel loved or attached. You protected yourself by burying these feelings and internalizing that there was something wrong with you for upsetting your parent. So, you came to believe that it was all your fault, you are bad, naughty and must make it up to them in order to feel loved and good enough. Well, this template is now how you see yourself in relationships with others.

You see yourself as ‘bad’ and deserving of punishment, so you must be ‘good’ to get the love you want.

You end up attracting abusive partners, with the wish to be good enough for them, so you get the love and approval you’re looking for.

In essence, you are still longing for your abusive father or mother to give you the lost love you wanted, yet, you bury this fantasy and replicate this pattern by attracting abusive partners, so you can get them to love you.

Often, when feeling not good enough, the desire for love can be the perfect bait that an abusive narcissist hooks into. When you’re meeting all their needs, you feel loved and good enough, which allows the abuse to be justified. When you blame yourself or think something is fundamentally wrong with you, you believe the abuser and allow yourself to be put down, because it is what you’ve already internalized about yourself. You repeat the pattern of putting up with abuse because it’s the internal bond that keeps you attached to the parental abuser, so you do not feel abandoned or not good enough.

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