Pulling Yourself Out of the Abyss: Healing from an Abusive Relationship

 December 06, 2016

Please log in or register to save posts.



We have all been there… we have all fallen in love with someone we thought was the man of our dreams but who, instead, became our worst nightmare. One particular relationship I was in was physically, emotionally and verbally abusive. It completely deteriorated any sense of “self” that I had and left me a shell of my former self.

One in four women will experience domestic abuse in her lifetime. We might even know someone experiencing it—she might sit next to us on the bus on our way to work, she might be in front of us in the checkout line at the supermarket, she might even work in our same building.

Recovering from the abuse I endured was one of the most difficult things I have had to do in my life. Not only did I have to come to terms with what I experienced, I also had to recover the loss of identity that happened as a result of what was going on in my relationship.

After gathering up the strength to walk away, here’s what I did to pull myself out of the abyss the abuse left me in:

1. I sought professional help. This might be a given but many abuse victims are too ashamed or humiliated to even feel comfortable telling their stories to a stranger. When we open ourselves up to another human being—especially one who has our best interests at heart—we open a space for healing in our lives. I count my therapist as one of my most trusted advisers and tell her everything, even details that I might find unnecessary to my story. She is able to take the details and help me discover how I was attracted to someone with an abusive personality. She also gives me the tools to help bolster my sense of identity and safety. By seeing her every week, I make my recovery from the abuse a priority and, in turn, I make myself a priority. Therapy is the most empowering thing I could do for myself, especially in face of what I lived through.




 

2. I started talking about my experience. When we feel something is too shameful to talk about, we promote the belief that abuse is something taboo. By opening up and sharing our experiences as abuse victims, we remove the stigma and we put a human face to the suffering. I have been told that my story has helped several other women cope with the abusive situations they were in. It makes me feel validated as a human being—and makes me thankful that my life’s most painful experience could help someone else.

 

3. I began cultivating dormant interests. This one was hard for me as, by the end of our relationship, every piece of my persona was dictated by him. One thing I love more than anything is writing—something he would regularly tell me I was horrible at. Now, when I sit down to write, it is a victory for me. Not only am I doing something I truly love, I am showing that the abuse can’t keep me down and that I can move forward. The more I write, the more confident I feel. When we feel confident in our talents, we can truly heal the wounded inner self.




7 comments on “Pulling Yourself Out of the Abyss: Healing from an Abusive Relationship

  1. If you have general knowledge of respect.. please stop posting such kind of articles mentioned to someone. Everyone including you have stroy behind. We dont know exactly about it. That is why if you are human.. stop curious and never post articles and advice mentioned to someone who dont request to you and is not your friend. Ok! Be human! Dont be abusive on facebook other feeling.

    • Tracy Mayhew I do understand about trauma bonds, that was precisely my point, you have to break the cycle. Easier said than done, granted, but doable, definitely doable.

Comments are closed.