A Narcissistic father can be abusive and lack empathy making their child feel that they don’t deserve any love, admiration, approval or respect.
You’ll waste your whole life waiting for them to change. Sleeping next to them and feeling alone. Wondering why they won’t treat you right. You keep thinking it’s your fault and you give more and more, hoping that your efforts will change things. You’re in love with a lie, this is just the truth that you don’t want to face. Let it go!