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8 Things That Can Help You Cope If Your Parents Never Loved You And Broke Your Heart

8 Things That Can Help You Cope If Your Parents Never Loved You And Broke Your Heart

Do you have a parent/parents who broke your heart beyond repair, and left you all alone to deal with the pieces, and you are still struggling to come to terms with all that pain and rejection?

I’ve always struggled to let go of the fact that I never truly had a normal mom and that she was never quite “a mother” by any definition. She suffered from mental illness and addiction problems. She was a narcissist, which made life difficult because things always had to be about her no matter what was going on in my life.

When I got engaged to a wonderful man, I thought that would spark some joy in her and possibly bring us together as I went through the wedding planning process. I thought maybe, for once, she could stop playing her usual mind games and manipulation tactics and just be a mother. But wow, was I wrong.

One morning when I was at work, I received a brief text from her that stated: “I will not be attending your wedding.” My heart sank. My stomach began twisting. Thoughts flooded my head. One thing I’ve learned in this life is that when it comes to dealing with someone who suffers from mental illness, we often find ways to blame ourselves for their hurtful actions. And just like that, I immediately questioned if I perhaps did something to provoke this. But I didn’t.

When you parent broke your heart
When your parent broke your heart

I included my mom in any way I could — she even came to our wedding shower and had a great time. After much contemplation, I told her she could bring her new husband to our wedding. This was a man I didn’t know at all and had only heard awful stories about. Despite my mixed feelings, I told her she was welcome to bring him if that was going to make her feel more comfortable.

I even went so far as to ask her how she wanted to be introduced, and if she would prefer to walk in with my father or not. Other family members offered her a ride to the wedding and even a free place to stay. I did my part.

But I couldn’t stop looking at the text. Before I responded, my sisters tried contacting her. She didn’t have much to say, and her only reasoning for her decision was that I “made the wedding all about me and my soon-to-be husband” and that I “didn’t take her dress shopping.”

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Now, correct me if I’m wrong, but typically, yes, weddings are mostly all about the two people who are getting married, and secondly, the mother should be taking the bride-to-be to dress shop, not the other way around. All of her excuses were invalid and disgusting. I finally texted her back explaining how hurt I was, how she broke my heart, and that if she chose not to come, I could not forgive her.

As much as we tried, and even after I sent her that message, she never responded, and she never showed up on my wedding day.

My mom has done a lot of messed-up things, but this one hit me hard. She has never sought out help for her addiction problems or mental illness. And the thing is, she simply should have wanted to see her daughter get married and been there no matter what. I’m slowly coping in various ways. And if your parent has ever broken your heart beyond repair, I hope these will help you cope too.

8 Things You Should Do If Your Parent Irrevocably Broke Your Heart

1. Remind yourself that everything happens for a reason.

Even if you don’t see the reason right now, trust in the process. It could be a blessing in disguise. The heartache could be helping you learn a valuable lesson for the future or allow you to close one door so you are forced to open a better one.

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Nikki Rutledge

Nikki is from Boston and has been writing since she was a young girl. She often uses her personal experiences as inspiration for her writing, in the hopes of helping others out there who may have been through similar struggles. She and her husband run a small business called Moonlight & Mindfulness where they offer hand-poured crystal candles, homemade tea blends, and crystal items like jewelry and gift sets. Nikki is also a meditation practitioner and leads workshops on things like the moon phases and shadow work.View Author posts