Robin Williams, one of the world’s most beloved actors and comedians, took his own life in 2014, leaving many people all over the globe shocked, confused and heartbroken.
The man who had been known for his ability to make everyone laugh and smile was gone, and it was by his own doing.
Williams’ wife recently came out to shed light on his death, revealing the hardship that Robin was suffering from in the days leading up to his suicide.
Robin’s wife, Susan, told Good Morning America that “It was not depression that killed Robin Williams.”
“Depression was one of let’s call it 50 symptoms, and it was a small one.”
“I’ve spent this last year trying to find out what killed Robin,” said Susan, “to understand what we were fighting, what we were in the trenches fighting.
And one of the doctors said, ‘Robin was very aware that he was losing his mind and there was nothing he could do about it.’”
An autopsy conducted on Williams’ body would ultimately reveal that he had been suffering from Dementia with Lewy Bodies, a disease much like Alzheimer’s that slowly decreases one’s ability to think, reason and function independently.
“I know now the doctors—the whole team—was doing exactly the right things,” Susan says, “It’s just that this disease was faster than us and bigger than us. We would have gotten there eventually.”
Susan says that Robin would often transition in and out of lucidness; one moment he was speaking intelligently about something and the next he was saying things that made zero sense.
She describes the disease as a person behaving much like a “pinball machine” because of how random and sudden the symptoms are.
Susan believes that Robin’s suicide was ultimately his last attempt to have some sort of control over his own life.
“In my opinion, oh yeah. I mean, there are many reasons. Believe me. I’ve thought about this—of what was going on in his mind, what made him ultimately commit, you know, to do that act.
And I think he was just saying, ‘No.’ And I don’t blame him one bit. I don’t blame him one bit.”
You can check out the full interview with Robin’s wife Susan right here.