But you have to realize you are better.
You are better than the guys who just use you for sex.
You are better than the guys who just use you emotionally.
You are better than the guys who lie to you and tell you what you want to hear making promises they’ll never keep.
You are better than the guys who can’t commit.
You are better than the texts that don’t get answered and the games they love to play.
You are better than the people who keep you waiting.
You are better than the people who leave.
You grow emotionally attached and think you need people but it’s them who needs you and a lot them won’t realize it until you walk away and it’s too late.
But I ask you not to change even when you’re hurting.
Because one day you’re going to meet someone who teaches you, you’re enough. One day you’re going to meet someone and everything you’ve done for others is going to come back to you. One day you’re going to cross paths with someone who makes you realize how great you are and you’ll start to see yourself through his eyes. And you won’t look at your flaws or the things you wish you could change. Because to him, you’re going to be perfect.
You’re going to meet someone who doesn’t take you for granted or use you for sex but teaches you what sex in a relationship should be. He’s gonna be someone who doesn’t keep you as some secret but shows you off to everyone. He’s gonna be someone who meets you halfway. And when that happens it’s going to feel a little weird at first because I know you aren’t used to getting what you give but that’s exactly what you deserve.
He’s going to be someone who answers your texts quickly and wants to see you as much as you want to see him. He’s not going to cancel on you or leave you standing somewhere alone as you put on a brave face even though you are hurting.
Being the way you are you’re going to get hurt but that’s part of it. One day you’re going to love again and it’s going to be right and you’re going to be sure and you’re going to wake up next to someone who makes you feel like you never were broken. Because he doesn’t treat you that way.
If I could tell my younger self and every other girl like me something about the relationships you engage in until you find the right one, don’t try so hard. Don’t hurt yourself loving so deeply. Don’t think you have to do everything to make the relationship work. Don’t choose the wrong people. But then I realize those relationships needed to happen.
Those bad relationships that made me fall to my knees are going to be what teaches me to appreciate the right one. And for every bad relationship and every night I cried myself to sleep and how much it hurt, that’s how much better it’s gonna be.
I would say don’t change even if it hurts to be the way you are because one day it’s not going to hurt anymore and one day it’s all going to come back to you everything you invested in those people who didn’t deserve it.