If You’re Having Suicidal Thoughts, Please Read This

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Having suicidal thoughts and dealing with them day in and day out is scary. It feels like you have a monster within you who wants to destroy you at all costs, and there comes a point when dealing with suicidal thoughts becomes a lot, and you’re willing to do anything to get rid of them.

I’ve now known, and I mean genuinely knew in person, spoke with, or was friends with, four people who have committed suicide. Attending those funerals, seeing all of the people who truly loved and cared for that person… How could they leave all of these people behind? I thought to myself. Even though, deep down, I knew how.

Because I’ve been on both ends of this. I know how you can contemplate it, I know how the thought can cross your mind when you feel like you’ve been pushed so far, you’ve been hurt so much, suffered for so long. I have mourned for those individuals who have committed suicide, but I have also had dark moments when those thoughts have seeped into my mind too.

But why? Many people may wonder. Why would the thought of taking your own life ever cross your mind? Well, there are a million reasons why.

And it could include anything from life trauma to chemical imbalances in the brain, to overpowering stress, anxiety, or depression, or just trying to live in a world where you constantly feel like you don’t belong or like you’re always being knocked down. Or sometimes. We just don’t know why we feel the way we do, and we may never know.

Related: Suicide Warning Signs: Suicidal Behavior That Are Easy To Miss

In this life, people can be viciously cruel and extremely selfish. Even sometimes the people we love most can hurt us more than anything or can let us down over and over again. People will hurt others without thinking about the repercussions of their actions, or even stopping to reflect on how they may have impacted another person in a negative, toxic way.

Or sometimes, the pain is not caused by anyone else at all. Sometimes, we just feel alone. Like no one could ever possibly imagine or understand what’s going on inside our heads because we don’t even understand it. We feel crazy, dissociated from the world like a lost soul wandering deserted streets.

Suicide does not discriminate. Look at some of the most famous role models, the individuals who were idolized by millions of people, but it still wasn’t enough to keep them here. It wasn’t enough to fight off the demons or suppress the harmful thoughts.

Kurt Cobain, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington…the list goes on. I recently went to a Disturbed concert where lead singer David Draiman took the time to talk to us about suicide awareness and the “demons all of us are fighting,” each and every day. He told us that we must all be advocates not only for ourselves but for those who are struggling mentally.

having suicidal thoughts
Having suicidal thoughts

“Intervene. Be an advocate. Don’t wait until you’re at their funerals standing in front of their casket…” David urged. Friends, family, whoever that person is who is coming to you, reaching out to you at their darkest hour, be an advocate for them. Help them. In any way, you possibly can. Suicide is never ever the answer, it is not a solution, eliminate it as an option.

It is something that is permanent. There is no going back, no rewinding time. It is something that inflicts pain upon those who love you…even if you don’t always feel their love, it’s there. I promise. And you leaving this world will only hurt them, more than a thousand knives through the heart, more than you could ever imagine.

You would leave a void in their lives that could never be filled. You will be gone, and you will be leaving them behind to hurt, to mourn, and to try and live an impossibly normal life afterward.

Related: Suicide Is Never The Answer: 6 Things To Know When Ending Life Seems Like The Best Option

The world we live in right now is all kinds of messed up. Men are taught to be strong, women are often seen as fragile, but everyone has demons, burdens to carry, weight on their shoulders. Everyone feels pain. We just all handle those demons and burdens in different ways.

Distorted self-image, body shaming, bullying, traumatic events, the internal and external scars many of us carry with us…it is not an easy time to be navigating through this crazy world. But no matter what, you always have to remember that you are not alone.

You have the power to change your life for the better. Regardless of how shitty other people can be or how heavy that weight on your shoulders may feel at times, the power is within you and the choices you make to change things, get the help you need and deserve, and make a life for yourself.

It won’t be easy, and there will be days when it’s overwhelmingly difficult. There will be days much darker than others, but that means there will be brighter days too. I still have days where I feel like I’m drowning. Like every time I come up for air, it is only to be knocked down again by a crashing wave.

But in that darkness, in that web of anxiety, fear, and pain I often find myself tangled in, I remind myself of the people who love me. I remind myself of the years I have not yet lived. The places I want to travel to. The parts of the world I have not seen. My future filled with mystery, excitement, hopes, and dreams. The endless possibilities of where I could go, who I could meet, who I could become, what I could accomplish.

Having suicidal thoughts

Life is a long and winding road, but you must stay strong. Don’t ever give up on yourself. There are millions of people out there who are struggling, who fight every single day to put on a brave face, even when deep down inside they feel broken like they’re falling apart and are unable to keep picking up the pieces.

But they keep on fighting because it’s worth it. Life is worth it. It will bring joyous moments, unforgettable memories…often at times when you least expect it. It is worth it to be here for the people you love, and who love you more than you know. You just need to hold on for the ride and stick around to witness all that will come, all that’s in store for you.

But in the meantime, go to therapy – any kind, don’t stop looking until you find one that works for you. There are endless amounts of options out there today. There are so many ways to find guidance, support, and someone who will truly listen and want to help you.

Talk about your feelings, find a support group, look into appropriate medicines if you need to, confide in friends and family, begin a healthy hobby, adopt a pet, join a club, listen to music that soothes your soul, start traveling the world, focus on yourself.

Related: How To Help A Person Who Is Feeling Suicidal

Do whatever it takes. Just don’t leave this earth. Do not shatter someone else’s world by leaving your own behind. Someone out there needs you, someone out there loves you. Live your life and stay alive to see your future come to fruition. And remember, there’s always a reason to keep on fighting for your life. Just don’t ever give up on yourself. Keep fighting. Keep staying strong. And keep living.

“When you suffered it all, and your spirit is breaking, you’re growing desperate from the fight. Remember your loved, and you always will be.” – Chester Bennington, The Messenger

Want to know more about feeling suicidal and how you can deal with it? Check this video out below!

Feeling suicidal and dealing with suicidal thoughts

Here are some helpful resources:

National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Website
Therapy Option Guides
Therapies for Depression
“A Reason to Fight”
Songs
Helpful articles

Check out Nikki Rutledge’s Instagram page, Moonlight And Mindfulness.


Written By Nikki Rutledge
Originally Appeared On Writings By Nikki Rae

Frequently Asked Questions (FAQs):

How to tell someone you are having suicidal thoughts?

If you want to tell someone that you’re suicidal, you need to first process your feelings and thoughts. Always make sure that you talk to someone you can trust and who will handle the situation in a non-judgemental and understanding manner.

What to say to someone who is having suicidal thoughts?

If someone confides in you about their suicidal thoughts, listen to them with an open mind and compassionate heart. Be non-judgemental and comforting, and make sure that you serve as a safe space for them to talk about their feelings. Express your concern but don’t scare them more or make them feel like a burden.

What to do when you feel suicidal?

If you are having suicidal thoughts, you can seek out therapy, call up suicide hotlines, reach out to your close ones for support, see a doctor or read up on helpful coping strategies online.

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