Let Go of What you Want

Let Go of What you Want

Let Go of What you Want….

She sent me a message that said she doesn’t know how I keep all of my sh*t together and that she’s happy for me and envious at the same time.

She’s always wanted a baby and she figured by the age of 32 she’d be married with three kids. She’s now considering that her vision might not be in the cards for her.

My response moved through my fingers as if someone else had taken over:

I never wanted this and never expected it. I was trying to survive my whole life. But, I wasn’t thinking of one day when I’d grow up and get married and have kids with a white picket fence. I thought I’d be dead by the time I was 17. When I made it to 18 I figured I’d better start creating something.

I think it comes easier for me to fill up on amazing things. Because I never had any preconceived notion of how or that they would come in the first place. I never tainted all of the avenues in which they could come by being so attached to how it looked that I shut down other possibilities. I knew how I wanted to feel, and I kept feeling…that.

Let Go of What you Want

I often say that I’d never let my love (for one person) stand in the way of my lifestyle.

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I’d always choose feeling “happy” over feeling “love” if the love was madness. This notion actually adds to the extent of which I’m capable of loving because it’s free love, it is a choice. I want to be there.

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So often I see people choosing “love” over “happiness” as if they’re stuck in love. They are often the same people that fall in love but have trouble staying in love.

Clients come in with a story that’s already embedded in every one of their neuro-pathways that “this is how a relationship should be” or

“this is what is true about relationships” or

“I’m in this relationship but can’t accept this, this, and this, about it.”

To my demise and benefit, I didn’t have examples of the kind of relationship that I would want, so I never got stuck on needing to have one. I never had childhood daydreams of growing up and being a mother or wearing a wedding dress. I never considered what kind of work I would do or where I would go.

What I’m proposing is a bit like the monkey trap. Monkeys are captured in India through a bottle that is big enough to fit their hand in and out of, with a banana placed inside.

The monkey is so consumed by having the goods inside of the bottle that before a capturer comes to throw a bag over its head, the monkey does not release the banana even though he’s terrified he’s about to get captured.

The hole is large enough for the monkey’s hand, but not large enough for his hand and the banana together. The monkey gives up his life for the sake of hanging on to this stupid banana when if he’d just let go, he’d be free.

That banana is emblematic of the projections I see so many people hanging onto about what their life “should” look like.

“My relationship should look like this so I’m failing to enjoy the relationships I’m in”.

“I should have kids by this time so I’m using my energy to be envious.”

“I should have a nicer home by now, so I can’t stand to come to my own sanctuary every day.”

13 thoughts on “Let Go of What you Want”

  1. Avatar of Donovan Furin

    All beautiful, but honestly what is the difference between holding on to expectations and pursuing a dream? I, for example, chase the goal of being the best golfer I can be. Some days I tell myself I shouldn’t. That I’ll always be chasing that dangling carrot. But most days I feel like if I stop trying I will eventually find myself on my death bed thinking ‘what if …?’ if I quit.

    1. Avatar of Alex Wilfred Wong

      When you expect, you’re living in the future, you’re putting stress and pressure on yourselves that you must obtain the goal , otherwise you’ll suffer.
      Pursuing a dream is all about enjoying the moment of pursuit, not the moment when you achieve your dream. It’s all about practicing mindfulness and living in the present

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