The most amazing life lessons can often come from the most unexpected sources. We might feel that we have it all figured out and have planned it out perfectly. But sometimes we just need a fresh new innocent perspective on life to understand what truly matters.
Orin Hahn liked to pretend that he knew what he was doing. It took a little girl to teach him how it’s done.
I hadn’t planned on being a father when I was 24. Honestly, I was still figuring out how to get better at pretending to be a grown-up. I had my own apartment, a wife, a role in my family’s business, and I was building up on my dreams of being a fashion photographer as well. So while it all looked together on the surface, underneath I still felt like a child. When an actual child entered the picture everything stirred all up.
To make matters more complicated I knew that a big part of my feeling childish was feeling at a loss when interacting with my wife. We met when I was 20; she was seven years older. A lifetime of hearing how women mature faster just meant that I easily fell into a trap of passivity, self-doubt, and believing that she knew best. It was only a few years later that it unraveled and we split.
Single for the first time as an adult I found myself having the space to learn whatever answers I could discover—answers about life, women, and being true to myself. So what did I learn from my weekends and time alone with my daughter? This:
Here are ways that a girl taught me to be a better man:
1. Be present/Share a moment –
When I would spend time with my daughter I would try to figure everything out. I was constantly making up things to do based on the limited time and money available. There was always a fear of “what do I do next?”
One time we went to the playground and bought a sandwich to split. As soon as we got there I handed it to her and said, “Finish this and then go play with those kids over there.” She just looked at me and said, “This is good. Here.” There was something so simple and deep about it. I started to repeat what I had just said and found that I couldn’t. I was always rushing. But she was happy to just sit with me. It made me realize to leave what was next for next. Don’t forget now.
It’s too easy to accumulate an undigested life and go hungry.
2. Women aren’t crazy/Empathy –
Every guy has faced the body issues of a woman. Whether it’s the “does this make me look fat?” question or just a general feeling of self-denigration. During my early years in the fashion industry, I heard it to no end. Quite honestly though, I didn’t get it. I mean, after all, I wasn’t an ideal body type, but I could find clothes, so what was the issue? Why couldn’t women just shop accordingly? I didn’t really get it until I went through the toddler to the preteen stage of shopping for my daughter’s clothes.
I always bought her clothes, and for the first four or five years, this was easy. Pick something cute, warm, or light as need be, and go to the size that was her age. I mean the clothes were labeled straightforward enough. That is until age six or so … I remember going with her to pick up jeans. I grabbed a size 6 and told her to put them on without really looking beyond the label. As she pulled them on she wriggled and looked awkward. She had a hard time closing them and started to cry saying “Dad, does this mean I’m fat now?”
She took them off and changed, and I noticed that the pants were nearly rectangular. They weren’t just a bit tighter, they were cut in a length that was for a much taller person with about two-thirds the circumference of my kid. I was shocked, these pants at a regular kids store looked like one of those drawings you would see in an exaggerated fashion sketch mockup. Feeling her pain and seeing how early on unrealistic expectations come into the picture for women really drove home the point. Body issues and doubt are sown early. And being aware of it as a man is a step towards empathy between the sexes. I let her know she was beautiful and only the pants needed to change.
We all feel ugly or wrong sometimes, we just need reminding that there are other choices.
