How To Put Yourself First Without Feeling Awful

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This is how you will learn to put yourself first without having an awful feeling.

Lately, my husband has been diligently on rehabbing a business. Now, given the nature of my work, itโ€™s location independence, and the fact that my schedule is fluidโ€“ Iโ€™ve been trying to help him out in any way I can. This has had its ups and downs, but Iโ€™ve noticed a real pattern with my own contributions.

A lot of emotional weirdness comes around while giving and receiving. One minute I feel generous and happy with my contributions and the next I feel resentful and withholding. As Iโ€™ve dug deeper to try and figure out why this is such a stubborn cycle, if youโ€™ve ever felt generous then resentful, then back again, maybe you can relate.

How To Put Yourself First Without Feeling Awful

As Iโ€™ve been trying to honor my own needs while being generous to my partner, Iโ€™ve noticed that thereโ€™s a monumental difference between making mindful sacrifices for the good of the whole in a relationship and sacrificing yourself. Often weโ€™re prone to sacrificing ourselves for our relationships instead of giving to ourselves first and then, when weโ€™ve filled our tank, extending outward.

Weโ€™re left with the feeling that we cheated ourselves out of our own time and attention that we so desperately needed. The sad part about this kind of over-giving is that sometimes we choose this as the DEFAULT position. We put others ahead of ourselves without even considering the cost or what weโ€™re giving up.

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Itโ€™s a little like an old-school scale (think gothic scales of justice). We put our effort and giving on one side of the scale and as it loads up and swings down lower and lower, we look around to see if anything is going on the other side of the scale to feed our own goals, dreams, and hopes.

We get stuck in a place of giving out and trusting that weโ€™ll eventually get back, but the problem is that we often overlook the needs that we could easily meet ourselves. We skip right past making ourselves happyโ€” perhaps because we feel selfish or like if we donโ€™t spend our light helping everyone around us, things wonโ€™t get done. We give this labor away and what weโ€™re left with is a cage of our own designs, a feeling of trapped that can only be gotten by intentionally giving our power away.

This is not to say that giving is bad, or that making sacrifices for the good of a whole is bad but allowing ourselves to pick ourselves last. That moment where we know that we would feel better if we honored ourselves but donโ€™t take the opportunity. The twinge of guilt or shame that made us say yes when we should have said no. The moment where we know good and well that by putting someone else first, what we really want takes a back seat.

By doing this, we give up our power that we often donโ€™t even realize that weโ€™re doing it. Then we feel resentful and overextended. It FEELS LIKE weโ€™re being taken advantage of.

It FEELS LIKE someone else is doing something to us, but we skip right over the fact that we gave when we shouldnโ€™t have, we gave and it got out of hand, or we allowed a sweet-talking human to burrow inside our brain.

Or we felt guilt and shame about โ€œnot helpingโ€ or โ€œnot being a nice girl (or boy).โ€ The thing is, that โ€œnice personโ€ inside our psyche sometimes desperately needs to grow up into a strong adult who has the right boundaries.

Why do we choose not to honor that is best for ourselves?

A subconscious fear runs through the spine that other people wonโ€™t like us. We mistakenly believe that we can win someone over by being completely selfless (after all, it works in the movies).

We fear that weโ€™ll somehow revert to complete and utter selfishness and weโ€™ll feel even worse than before we said no. Or weโ€™ve so conditioned the people around us that they expect weโ€™ll cater to them and when we donโ€™t, they freak out. Or we finally say no and then beat ourselves up over the other personโ€™s reaction.

Instead, I propose this: I think that when we honor who we truly are in our relationships, without the guilt, fear, and shame involved in over-giving, weโ€™re infinitely more attractive than when weโ€™re doing anything out of imagined obligation or fear.

I think we believe that weโ€™ll somehow automatically cross over into jerky-bitch territory if we honor ourselves, but this is false. It might take a while for the other people in our lives to catch up and realize that we need to rebalance the scale, but if they truly love and accept us, it wonโ€™t be an impossible transition.

When you realize itโ€™s time to honor yourself?

Since itโ€™s so easy to fall into this trap, I created a model, who I like to think of as a version of my higher self. When I notice myself doing things I would rather not or twisting myself around instead of honoring my own needs, I think of her.

She is a strong, gorgeous woman who is known as generous and kind but puts herself first. She knows her worth and takes care of herself in all ways, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

She operates from an internal locus of control. Her basic standard mindset is valuable and worthy. She doesnโ€™t allow other peopleโ€™s drama to suck her in or make her feel poorly about herself. On the career front, she feels comfortable and safe accepting payment for her labor.

Giving and receiving are safe since she lives outside the realm of fear and guilt. She gives to others only when she truly wants toโ€” and since her own emotional tank is full (she filled it first), this is quite often. She uses the word โ€œnoโ€ liberally and appropriately.

As a result of these self-nurturing beliefs and behaviors, sheโ€™s free from resentment or anger about her contributions. There are no angry, โ€œwhy arenโ€™t you giving back?โ€ moments from her since she simply removes, changes, or distances herself from situations and people that arenโ€™t generous or kind to her. She is just as comfortable with receiving as she is giving.

Now, the further away from this higher self avatar that I actually get, the worse I feelโ€”in both my work and personal life. If youโ€™re feeling overextend too, why donโ€™t you create your own version of your higher self?

What does giving to yourself actually feel like?

What does it feel like to honor your own wants first and then have the emotional resources to be generous with others?

What does it feel like to let go of fear and resentment?

Take the time to picture it vividly. Tell me your thoughts in the comment section below.

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When You Feel Ragged and Over-Extended This Is How You Can Put Yourself First Without Feeling Awful
How To Put Yourself First Without Feeling Awful
Feeling Ragged and Over-Extended? How To Put Yourself First Without Feeling Awful
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