Open Letter To Anyone Who Doesn’t Feel Like Themselves Anymore
You are not the same person anymore.
Every single day, you look into the mirror and ask yourself, ‘Do I know me?’
It’s been quite a few months you have been feeling that you are not being yourself; that whoever you know is not your true self.
It might have been such that something or someone changed you.
But is it really worth it?
Are you happy with the person you are now?
Do you enjoy being the person you are now?
Think again.
You know you are not the same person anymore. You have not been able to accept the change in yourself. It’s something you were forced to embrace.
You feel lost and your past is gone forever.
You crave to get back your past self but you are shackled and somehow, you cannot break away from it.
Do you remember how jubilant you were before?
How excited were you to meet new people and do new things?
That incident at the pub…does it rings any bell?
You were laughing out loud with strangers and even danced. That was the first time you discovered how much you enjoyed dancing.
What about now?
The other week you went to that same pub and sat with a beer alone; you didn’t even look at others dancing let alone talk to strangers.
What’s wrong? Can you understand this?
It’s been quite a while you have bashed someone for doing something wrong. Isn’t it?
Last year you saw a bunch of girls mocking a fat girl at the Student’s Centre.
You went up to them and entered into a fight telling them that good looks don’t account for good behavior and that they are mean human beings.
Others noticed and appreciated the way you stood by the fat girl.
Why then didn’t you speak up the other day when you saw a man misbehaving with the waiter? What made you control your tongue?
Have you seen how your wardrobe has changed?
You think twice before buying a new clothing. At the back of your mind, you are always thinking, ‘What will they say if I wear this?’
You are not comfortable with whatever you are wearing; you aren’t happy with whatever you are wearing.
Your schedule has changed and you have to keep in mind while communicating with people. You have to think a number of times before saying or doing things.
You are not the same person anymore.
Every single day, you wake up and ask yourself, ‘Is this really me?’
You are tired. Deep down, you know you are judged and that your actions will get misinterpreted.
You need to be extremely careful while taking every step of your life. There’s too much to deal with and you need some peace on your own.
