Sometimes we get exhausted.
We’re tired of all the questions that don’t die inside our heads, questions that we honestly don’t have any prepared answers, questions that maybe we won’t get to figure out. We’re tired of trying to fit ourselves to someone else’s standards, to live up to someone’s expectations, to become the best in their own eyes. We’re exhausted with the modern dating schemes, and we’re even more exhausted to see some people patronizing them. We’re exhausted of explaining the kind of love that we believe is true, the love that lasts for a lifetime, the love that gives us a reason to wake up every day.
Sometimes we get hurt.
We’re in pain when we remember the relationships we had that only lasted in such short period of time. We’re tormented about the times that we sacrificed our happiness in hopes that someone will love us back. We’re hurt that some people think it’s okay to manipulate us, take advantage of us, rob our innocence, and play with our feelings.
Sometimes we get scared.
We’re worried that maybe there’s something wrong with us, something that drives people to step back and turn around, and something that gives them an excuse to run away from us. We’re afraid that maybe we talked too much when we had our first dates, or our personalities came off as too strong for them to handle, or we weren’t not cool enough to sit with their friends. We’re scared that when it gets dark, and we’re left alone in our own thoughts, we can’t help but ask ourselves, “What If I never love again?
But I think we think too much.
I think that when we’re with our friends, they see us as the fun type, the kind they feel energized to be around with, and maybe we are the people who are sometimes the life of the party. I think that when we’re with ourselves, we’re vulnerable, soft, and humble. I think that when we’re with strangers, maybe they look at us as the type of people who have cool hobbies and interests in their lives.
And I think we’re okay. We’re perfectly fine. I don’t think that there’s something that we should change about ourselves, something that we need to adjust for someone, something that we need to do more or do less. We are who we are, and for a lot good reasons, people love us.
We will not give up on love because whenever we see people who found the right ones they’re looking for, we get inspired and have our hopes up again. We get inspired to achieve the love that makes us believe in second chances, a love that is sweeter the second time around, a love story that is more beautiful when re-written. We want to hope to meet someone who’s going to be the answer to all the doubts that consume our minds.
We will not give up on love so we can show to our fears that they have no power to haunt us and bring us down. We want to prove to ourselves that we can live a free life that is not based on impressing other people and desperately trying to make sure they are happy. We want to stand in the face of sadness and let it see that it can’t provoke a tear in our eyes, or even trigger any insecurity of us.