I value people and I value memories. I attach my whole being to it. For a person like me, memories, people, and places mean a lot – they mean almost everything. And I would never want to lose any of it.
If there comes a choice between leaving something and fighting, I wouldn’t waste a second to decide what I’d do. I will fight – I will fight till the very end to preserve something or someone and stay with them forever.
I confess I don’t have the strongest heart. It feels too much and it latches on. I cannot deal with a situation where I have to leave. I cannot deal with breakups or friendships gone wrong.
I’m not the person who just leaves something when it isn’t working out
– I try to make it work out. I put in all my efforts to understand a situation and try to find a solution to it. I would adjust, sacrifice, compromise and do whatever is necessary just to make a person last in my life. I do not want to lose them – but I don’t expect that they put in the same amount of effort that I’m putting in to make something work. I expect the other person to put in a little effort.
I like to give chances to other people.
There can be mistakes – there can be misunderstandings. People are flawed, So, I keep this belief close to my heart and give away second chances. Even third chances. If you have committed a mistake, then I make sure that you get the benefit of the doubt. Yes, I’m willing to forgive you and work with you to make this relationship last. I’m willing to give everything into it. I’m not going to give up on you that easily. I believe in you.
But my kindness has also become my plague. It has cost me heartbreaks and terrible anguish. It has broken me in ways that I cannot mend. Ever!
Yet, I’m not someone who would change just because I had gone through the worst things in my life. I believe that I have nice qualities. I believe that we all need to fight for what we want to have and we should all fight for what we want to PRESERVE.
So, if I’m in a relationship and I’m fighting hard to keep it alive, please respect it.
Please join in this battle and let us meet in the middle. If we combine our forces then we can make it all work out. I can even put in more effort than I possibly could just to make it last. The only thing I need to know is that you are actually doing something as well on your side.
But if you have been horrible to me, they know this, I WILL NOT HESITATE TO LEAVE YOU. Trust me, I don’t like leaving people and it hurts me more than you could imagine. But, if you have done something that is completely unforgivable, I will leave you. And you will NEVER see me again.
I know I have a big heart and that has brought me a lot of trouble. But I’m not someone who feels like they are worthless. When I work hard for something, it is MY CHOICE and I know why I’m doing it. I’m not doing it just to create some kind of worth for myself. So, know that while you can push your limits with me, I’ll totally try to understand why you are doing so. But, there will be a boundary too. Cross it, and I’m out of your life!