You Can Get PTSD From Staying In An Emotionally Abusive Relationship

You Can Get PTSD

Are you feeling trapped in an abusive relationship and don’t know what to do? Do you know you can get post-traumatic stress disorder or PTSD from abusive relationship?

I wanted to leave, but I didn’t know how…

Stop. Just stop asking why a woman is so stupid and so weak when she stays in an abusive relationship. There’s no answer you can possibly understand.

Your judgment only further shames abused women. It shames women like me.

There was no punch on the very first date with my ex-husband. That’s not normally how abusive marriages start. In fact, my first date was probably pretty similar to yours: he was charming, he paid attention to me, and he flattered me.

Of course, the red flags were there at the beginning of my relationship. But I was young and naïve, probably much like you were at the beginning of your relationship.

Except my marriage took a different turn than yours.

Emotional abuse in a relationship takes time to build. It’s slow and methodical and incessant, much like a dripping kitchen faucet.

It begins like a little drip you don’t even notice — an off-hand remark that is “just a joke.” I’m told I’m too sensitive and the remark was no big deal. It seems so small and insignificant at the time. I probably am a little too sensitive.


I occasionally notice the drip but it’s no big deal. A public joke made at my expense is just my partner being the usual life of the party. When he asks if I’m wearing this dress out or whom I’m going with, it only means he loves me and cares about me.

When he tells me he doesn’t like my new friend, I agree. Yes, I can see where she can be bossy. My husband is more important than a friend, so I pull away and don’t continue the friendship.


The drip is getting annoying, but you don’t sell your house over a leaky faucet.

When a playful push was a little more than playful, I tell myself he didn’t really mean it.

He forgets he’s stronger than me. When I confront him in yet another lie he’s told, he tells me I’m crazy for not believing him. Maybe I’m crazy … I’m beginning to feel a little crazy.

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I begin to compensate for the drips in my marriage. I’ll be better. I’ll be a better wife. I’ll make sure the house is clean and dinner is always prepared. And when he doesn’t even come home for dinner, I’ll keep it wrapped and warmed in the oven for him.

On a night I’m feeling feisty, I feed his dinner to the dog before he comes home. I’m not feeling quite as smug well after midnight when he does show up. I quickly get out of bed and go to the kitchen as he yells at me to make him dinner.

Waking me from sleep becomes a regular occurrence. I no longer allow myself deep, restful sleep. I’m always listening and waiting.

In the morning, I’ll shush the kids to keep them quiet so they don’t wake up daddy. We all begin to walk on eggshells around him.


The drip is flowing pretty strong now. I’m afraid to put a bucket under it and see how much water I’m really losing. Denial is setting in.

If I hadn’t said what I did, he wouldn’t have gotten so mad. It’s my fault; I need to just keep quiet. I should know better than to confront him when he’s been drinking.

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He’s right — I really am an ungrateful bitch. He goes to work every day so I can stay home with the kids. Of course, he needs time to himself on the way home from work each day.

On the rare occasion, I do meet with my friends, I rush to be home before him. I never ask him to watch the kids so I can do something in the evening. I mustn’t inconvenience him.

We attempt marriage counseling. Although neither of us is totally honest about why we are there, the counselors are open with us about their concerns.

14 thoughts on “You Can Get PTSD From Staying In An Emotionally Abusive Relationship”

  1. Avatar of David Kojis

    My Dad Was very abuse of to my mother his Dad my grampa was the same they told me that it was hereditary but to me, I found that being a Lie I Have been on this earth and I never did raise a hand I had some thought they could do that to me, but I left before that could happen I am great full for doing that

  2. Avatar of Anna

    10 years. And now, five years later. It still haunts me, PTSD makes sure that you stay in that relationship even when it’s long gone and over.
    I’m stuck and every night I’m back in that situation, the fear, the sadness, the tiredness, the mental prison. All the mental and physical types of abuse are written in my brain and no matter how many times I try to over write it, as soon as I go to sleep, I’m back.
    I’ve been working on this for 2 years now. . . baby steps, but I feel like I’m still stuck.

  3. Avatar of Delilah Tunnell

    Everything you wrote was exactly my life with ex husband, narcissist bi- polar, alcoholic .Fourteen and half years of riding a rollercoaster, walking on eggshells. No more! I left July 18th 2016. No one deserves that kind of treatment, get your children away from him/her, they will grow up to be just like them. Break the cycle. We are beautiful, we are kind, we are worth it!

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