The fear of being happy.
What really happens when the lights go out and there are no witnesses?
Sounds like fear of the inevitable to me. Life has it’s ways of balancing the negative and the positive.
Finding yourself again is the hard part.
It wouldn’t hurt to know, might even heal to do so.
Learn to let go
You All Have to Stop Being so Afraid
Every Deep thinker is More Afraid
The Older I Get the Easier It is