What Scares Me Most About Love Is Someone Waking Up

What scares me most about love is someone
waking up and just deciding, ‘you aren’t the person I love or want
to be with anymore.’ Because that’s exactly what happened.
And I don’t know how you lay next to someone at night,
hold them close, touch them, look at them every day,
tell them things you’ve never told anyone then just
quit them like it’s easy. I’ve been hurt before.
I’ve loved people who didn’t love me back.
I’ve gotten my heart broken. But there isn’t
anything that equates to you waking up finally
saying I love you and watching someone simply reply
‘it’s over.’ Reliving something like that is my absolute
worst fear. And it broke me in such a way,
I don’t know how to be myself when it comes to love
or even if I want to be.
– Kirsten Corley