I Want To Live Before The Breakdown

I want to live before the breakdown. I want to know myself and be aware of my own desires, so chat I don’t live someone else’s life. I want to be awake, fully, to the life that I want and to make active, intentional steps to create it, rather than sleepwalk through life and achieve on autopilot. I want to determine my own value. I want to court my own acceptance. I want to live with integrity. I want to reevaluate and to change course when something isn’t working. I want to achieve without needing to prove anything to anyone at all. I want all my choices and decisions to stem from me, only. not from some invisible expectation of what should do. I want to figure out myself what it means to live. to be alive, to be successfull. to be happy, to be in love.

I want to live before it’s too late to live.