Are You Happy

“Are you happy?”
“In all honesty? No.

But I am curious – I am curious in my sadness, and I am curious in my joy. I am ever-seeking, ever feeling. I am in awe of the beautiful moments life gives us, and I am in awe of the difficult ones.

I am transfixed by grief, by growth. It is all so stunning, so rich, and I will never convince myself that I cannot be somber, cannot be hurt, cannot be over-joyed.

I want to feel it all – I don’t want to cover it up or numb it.

So no, I am not happy. I am open, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.