Honesty and Self-Awareness

There have been

and still are

 

many Moments

I ask ME-self

Why?

What?

Who?

AM I

 

On the way,

on this path

to Self Awareness

 

I become

finaly honest

to ME-self

 

to everyone

outside of ME

 

I become honest

to every moment

to every situation

appearing in my life

 

honest

with every act

 

every-thing I am

think-ing, say-ing and do-ing

 

but it goes absolutely

in a direction where

I distract ME from

every-thing I beLIEved

I am

 

Me wasn’t able to understand

the re-actions coming

towards me from most

human beings around me

 

Me wasn’t able to understand

that everything

is turning in a direction

my old “ME” can’t accept

in the manner they

appear

 

But then

I remember

 

that in my life’s past

I lied at ME-self

and others

 

only to reach goals

in this system

 

maybe a better job

or anything other

who brings me

more acceptance

in this artifical

world of perception

 

I lied

to BE

one of these sheeps

system was wanting

ME

 

or even I lied

to hide any-thing

only to not been

confronted with

truth

 

but finaly I remembered

ME-SELF

 

after fourthy

long years of

being an uncosciuos

gear-wheel

in this

SIMULACRUM

 

I begann to realize

I begann to observe

I begann to asking

 

ME-SELF

 

About every beLIEve I have

About every Thought

About every Emotion

Who I thought

Is ME

 

About every-thing outside

of ME

About every-thing material

I was clinging to

 

But this path of

be-ing and meet

ME-self

 

a way of destruction

a way of separation

a way of losing the

old overlay of

ME-self

 

I have lost many

so called “friends”

and others I thought

they are my family

 

Even if this path

is a lonely one

full of pain

full of shakiness

full of insecurity

 

I know

this path

 

is the only true

one

for ME-self