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Facing and Healing Fear of Abandonment in Relationships

Facing and Healing Fear of Abandonment in Relationships 

by Banu

“Jealousy is nothing more than a fear of abandonment” -Anon

Being abandoned by the man I love for someone else used to be my biggest fear in romantic relationships. Living with that fear was not easy. It made my life hell and I transferred that onto the man I was with through my words and actions. I became a rag doll in the hands of my imagination when it came to conjuring up abandonment scenarios in my mind.

Allowing the fear to take over, I would become someone the man I was with no longer recognized. It was almost as if the person he was attracted to when he met, had turned into the nightmare woman discussed in men’s self-help forums. I became controlling, paranoid, jealous and manipulative. It was preventing me from opening my heart completely to the man I adored. He would withdraw, which in return would fuel my fear of abandonment even more and make me even clingier. It was a vicious cycle.

 

Acknowledging the Deeper Issue 

Looking back, I can see that the reason I kept attracting men who would trigger me this way was for me to work through my biggest fear: abandonment. I realized that it wasn’t necessarily about changing them but it was about recognizing what needed healing in me. I was the common denominator in all these relationships. It had to be me who needed to change first. I hadn’t created the wound, it had happened. It had gifts to bear but not until I was willing to accept it. Arriving at this awareness helped me build up the courage to accept it.

If you have a fear of abandonment or a wound that manifests as one, the following points may offer you some insights…

 

1) When you decide to change, you get the help you need

I think that I could have avoided the stress that was created in my relationships had I been willing to face my fear of abandonment. When it became detrimental to my growth and happiness, my loyal servant subconscious mind brought it to the surface in various forms. My intuition would guide me towards a random article about attachment, a video or I would randomly overhear a snippet of a conversation between two women talking about this very issue.

 

2) Get to know your love script

Whether we know it or not, we all have a script ingrained in us that we unconsciously follow in romantic relationships. This script is usually formed when we were little by the conditioning we innocently accept from the people around us. Not pausing enough to review this script consciously will keep us in a loop of pain and disappointment. Examine your past romantic relationships by paying more attention to the patterns that show up. Such as choice of partners, how the relationship progresses or what kind of problems arise- every time. Find the common denominators. Be a detective.

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Written by banu

Banu is an intuitive coach and a healer. Her passion is removing mental, emotional and energetic blocks that hold people back from the ultimate joy of living. You can connect with her on her website and download her free e-book titled, "23 Effective Ways to Clear and Protect Against Negative Energy".

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