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Hi, I’m Tree
And that’s Stick Girl on my shoulder.
Pretty much my whole life I’ve been told by everyone (except Stick Girl, of course) that I feel too deeply, I’m too emotional.
I proved them all right in my late teens when I sunk into a dark depression that took me over a decade to climb out of.
You can read about a few ways I came out of them here and here.
I used to wake up in the morning, open my eyes, realize I was still alive, and then close my eyes again, defeated, sinking deeper into my bed.
I. Hated. Being. Alive.
And I especially didn’t want to FEEL anymore.
Even when nothing was wrong, even when things were going well, I had quiet desperation, deep despair that was always there, lurking beneath my moments of happiness, hiding under the gratitude lists, dream journals, and vision boards.
Sometimes I was able to shove it aside, push it away, and have a semblance of joy, and other times, it took everything in me not to break down and succumb to it.
But now things are different.
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