When Someone You Love Relapses

When Someone You Love Relapses

When someone you love relapses, your whole world comes crashing down. Everything seems bleak and scary, and utterly hopeless. You constantly think about all those things you have done to help them fight this, but nothing ever seems to work; like always you feel that you are back to square one. Again.

You never thought he would relapse…

You trusted him. He promised you that he’d changed. Convinced you that he’d learned his lesson, that his days of using drugs and alcohol were over. He finished a rehab program, celebrated the anniversary of his abstinence with you. He hugged and thanked you for being there, for not abandoning him. He would never relapse again.

And you felt relief in your soul. The dark cloud that hung over and overshadowed everything, finally lifted. You could breathe again, sleep again. You told yourself, “I grew from this pain. I am a better person for it. More humane, more compassionate, more understanding.” You congratulated yourself on staying strong. You didn’t give up on him. You made it through the worst life could throw at you. Now you could finally get back to enjoying your time together.

Then, one day, you notice that dark clouds are gathering again. Things don’t seem right. You have a sense that the lies are back. You push the thought away. You tell yourself, “It’s not true. I’m just being paranoid.” You engage in reckless optimism, ignoring the signs in front of you. Maybe it’s because you don’t think your heart could recover again, you don’t think you could survive another relapse.

How many times can a heart break before it can’t be mended?

Slowly, it dawns on you: the old behaviors have returned. He looks different, talks different. Something in his manner seems false and calculated.

When you work up the courage to talk to him, you tell yourself, “Be gentle. Talk from a place of love.” You even practice what to say. After all, you want to be mindful.

When you express your concerns, he becomes enraged. “Why can’t you believe in me?” he yells, “You’re the problem. You’re the cause of this—, not me.”

You feel ashamed. You feel embarrassed. You apologize. But, deep down, you know something is wrong again. Something is broken. You can’t ignore it anymore. (See “Five Warning Signs”)

Who do you turn to during a loved one’s relapse? Who do you tell?

Related: Loving Someone With Drug Addiction: What Can You Do To Help?

Recovering from Relapse

It’s impossible to describe the pain you feel when someone you love relapses. Your world turns upside down. You discover so many lies and falsehoods, you don’t know what’s real anymore. (See “3 Questions to Ask Yourself About Your Relationship.“)

Your recovery starts when you step away from trying to help the one you love and focus on helping yourself. Here are three important steps toward feeling whole again.

3 Things You Can Do When Someone You Love Relapses

1. Find a Support Group

In over twenty years working as a therapist, I’ve found there is nothing more powerful than a group of people struggling together. The empathy of peers, the love, and support of individuals who share your experience is healing. Look online, call an 800 number, find a group, and go. (See “3 Ways Group Can Help.”)

2. Avoid Isolation

There will be the impulse to withdraw, isolate yourself, hide from others. Don’t do it. Isolate breeds depression, anxiety, fear. It makes problems feel insurmountable. Force yourself out, go for walks, go to the gym, go to the theater. Keep seeing friends, keep being active—keep living.

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Sean Grover LCSW

Sean Grover, LCSW is a psychotherapist, speaker, and author with 25 years of experience. He maintains one of the largest group therapy practices in the U.S. and leads over 300 groups a year in his practice, in addition to monthly workshops in clinics, medical centers, youth organizations, and schools. For more information about Sean, visit www.SeanGrover.comView Author posts