All these days, I was treading towards something I thought I deserved to desire, something that put me outside my comfort zone, something that helped me appreciate the smaller things like saying thank you to the person who doesn’t deserve it or smiling back at the person who walks past me every day. But, I have learned not to worry about being single. Instead, I have grown past that feeling of wanting to be in a relationship.
Earlier, I was kinda wary of being all by myself when everyone around me was getting what they wanted, like when my friends were getting into relationships, working the jobs that paid their worth, having fun they deserved etc. And although I was innately happy that they are finally getting what they were meant to, somewhere back in my mind, I was wondering why am I lacking the taste of those happy moments.
Granting, I was happy with my single status and with my job, even though it paid me less, I was somehow enjoying every perk of being single. Similarly, I was enjoying the process of learning things that were creating curiosity in every challenge that was coming my way.
It’s just that sometimes, I felt it would have been better to hold a hand while walking, talk to someone special every night before sleeping, doze off while the other person is still talking, have someone to scold for not giving them enough time, someone whom I can love unconditionally and be loved back the same way.
Sometimes, I wanted to meet a person and feel that the two of us are meant to be together forever, not just as lovers but as friends, as a family or as someone completely different. Someone, who is beyond the bounds of all the relationship norms and someone for whom the respect has grown greater than my life. Someone who makes me believe in the concept of togetherness, fate, destiny, and love, especially in Love. Someone who becomes my stronger intuition, who drives me towards working on what I believe in. Someone who aligns her body perfectly with mine while I sleep peacefully, and the warmth that my heart feel awakens me slightly as she draws my hand around her waist, that brings a sleepy smile on my face that makes me subconsciously happy and I wanna feel that forever.
I don’t think there exists another person like you, who is different from everything that defines normal, who can capture my attention beyond the beauty and who can charm me with your silence, that speaks a million words about million different things. And in that silence, I hear the echoes of my own thoughts taking shape into words that only our hearts can comprehend.
You always fill me with amazement on how someone, as precious as you, can be so simple yet look effortlessly elegant and graceful. Someone in whose arms I wanna be wrapped in, the eyes I wanna be lost in. Someone, whose touch can soothe every pain and the smile makes me feel like I have loved you long before I have known you, kissed you even before I have touched you.