Sociopath is a big word. We shy away from the idea because it sounds like a movie not real life. Taking a second look at this can save us lots of pain.
Dating a sociopath is something Iโve done a lot of. I never knew this until I married one. After the big-whammy experience with the con man sociopath who hijacked me for a green card in marriage fraud, and after really grasping how their little minds operate and their quirks and foibles, I know: Iโve dated a sociopath more than once.
Now I know Iโve dated one of these weirdo-s twice. Briefly. And about eight, all told have tried to get into my life. One of them got me into a legal marriage. Chances are, you might have known some as well. And, maybe like me,ย you went beyond dating a sociopath and married one.
Read 11 Warning Signs Of A Sociopath in Your Life
They Say One in 25 People is a Sociopath: One in Every Classroom
After the harrowing hideous entanglement and then the restoration of my life after the dirt-bag who hijacked me for a green card, I now know I came across a sociopath for one of the first times in my life in grade school. He was ten years old, and so was I. We were in the 5th grade.
He was super gross. Nobody liked him. He was tough and mean and didnโt fit the profile of that charming sociopath we read about at all. โ But maybe crafting that smoothie exterior comes later in life for these creatures.
I was plagued by his attention. What I didnโt yet know was, thereโd been a bet or a joint plot or some such heinous thing among complicit classmates that he could grab me and kiss me on the playground. Where the heck were the adultsโฆ?
The Moment of Attack Sharpens Small Detail
As it goes down, I suddenly realize Iโm all alone, sitting on a swing. Thereโs nobody else playing, no balls bouncing, no laughingโฆ And no one near me. It dawns on me that the entire 5th and 6th grade are divided into two camps on opposite sides of the blacktop.
The optics of the scenario stretch and pull as they do in moments of impending doom. I see or sense one band of kids far, far away in a corner of the now ghostly playground, hovering in a flock by one of the outbuildings.
A Laser Point of Focus
The more nearby knot of whispering, heaving-with-excitement 10-year-olds backs further away as a lone figure slithers towards me. In this moment, the classical traits of the snake-like qualities of a sociopath shimmer off of this kid whoโs now in the way-too-near-me horizon.
The dirty-haired, pale-skinned predator floats up like on aย Z-axis cameraย dolly, sliding into close-up position. His mouth, open in anticipation or in order to breathe.
Emanating from him, some super-human honing device sucked at me, aligning my body with my soul still inside it right into his orbit. That sensation of two magnets coming together on the right side or the wrong side; will they click and snap together, or hurl away in violent refusal?
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Primal Defenses Kick In: Trust Your Gut
Brave little me looks the prepubescent beast straight in his eyes. At the millisecond I registered his leer, his curled lip revealing tiny, pointy yellowish teeth, my right arm pulls itself back, my hand in a rock-hard fist ready to smash his face. โ Something Iโd never done in my life.
In addition to being deceptive about who they are and about their intention in our lives, sociopaths donโt heed the natural and normal boundaries we have and that we expect others to have.
His eyes open wide from the slits of a hunter; shock replaces the cocky, shit-bag expression on his ugly freckled face. He leans back from his waist and comes closer all at once. He hisses through a clenched jaw, threatening:ย Donโt you hit me. โ I didnโt.
I did look straight into his eyes looking for a person. There wasnโt one. But, he did look scared. Of me. Then I said not a word except a telepathic, silent human-to-beast:ย Donโt you fuck with me.
Those very words werenโt in my head, but surely there were screaming in my five foot two and 98-pound intention. He backed off. The crowds dispersedโฆ And everything after that is a blur. I spent the rest of the 5th grade in the nurseโs office or sitting in the counselorโs room every recess.
Persistence of Predators: They Donโt Heed Boundaries
And then, either before or after that nice day, another fine day this grimy psycho kid shows me a messed up sketch heโd made. Presented it like a gift.
Smeared pencil on a piece of lined notebook paper; so many creases where heโd feverishly folded and unfolded the page in sweaty hands it was almost tattered. It was a crude drawing of an underground fort. Dug from the earth next to a tree, entwined in its roots. He told me this is where he planned to take me and keep me.
Sociopaths Need Normal People to Survive: They Count on Us Not Knowing What They Are
Turns out, I used to be the kind of person sociopaths really like. Someone they like to date, marry, and maybe even kidnap. A lot of us are this kind of person.. because weโre alive and amazing. โ You know, someone these predators sniff out as delicious prey.
And this doesnโt mean weโre stupid, or a doormat, or codependent. โ And donโt even go down the road of thinking you, or Iย are sociopath magnetsโฆ The very idea of aย sociopath magnetย implies itโs the targeted prey who are at fault for the fall down the rabbit hole. So not true.
Wanting a relationship and working for it doesnโt mean weโre codependent.ย Nice does not equal doormat.ย Dating a sociopath-con-manย does not signify that weโre stupid. It does indicate our natural goodness and view of the world from the heart and eyes of normal.
Weโre Not Stupid: We Do Need to Know and Accept That Monsters Exist
Sociopaths donโt get far or get much to support their lives out ofย stupid. Donโt forget, we unwittingly hold up their world; stupid canโt hold up tier own world and another grown personโs too.
Codependentย simply does not apply as the case of this criminal hijacking arrangement they set up. Itโs more likeย instant hypnosis, and unless youโve been in it:ย Sit down. โ Thatโs what you can all those people who say:ย Didnโt you knowโฆ? Why didnโt you just leaveโฆ?
What the Beasts Need
The more we learn about what a sociopath is and how to recognize them, you may realize youโve known a few. Bleeping onto a sociopathโs radar screen as a potential target doesnโt mean thereโs anything wrong with us.
What they do work with, and do a lot with, is our emotions. Thatโs what theyโre afterโฆ They donโt care really aboutย which emotion; they just want a normal human one.
Our natural normal response from the world of normal. Our human emotions based on our ordinary and extraordinary kindness. They want open hearts,ย people who care, and people who donโt know what a predator is and that these revolting creatures existโฆ Even in 5th grade.
Dating a Sociopath:ย 8 Reasons to Suspect Weโre Dating a Sociopath
Sociopaths donโt respond normally to normal things.ย For example, whenย something bad happensโฆ like our pet turtle dies, or our cat gets sick, or we lose a family member, they remain kind of neutral, almost bored, or say something like,ย such a pityย and go on watching Netflix. Or, throw off a blast of ice-cold freeze out.
Narcissistic predators say thingsย likeย I donโt have feelings.ย Orย Iโm going to teach you a lesson,ย and they arenโt talking aboutย tennis or playing the piano. Or when weโre deep in it, as I heard one day from the nut case who hijacked me in marriage,ย I canโt make you do what I want you to, but I can make you wish you had.ย
Things Are Unclear and Foggy or Scary or Too Exciting
- Things feel weirdโฆlike theyโre lying; what they say doesnโt make sense.
- We spend time coming up with explanations for what they say and defend them to others.
- Weโre not sure where they live, or where they are when theyโre not with us.
- They talk about doing something for โusโ thatโs something weโve always wanted and weโre excited beyond anything.
- The good stuff never happens, but weird stuff does.
- They seem mostly only semi-interested in things you say.
- Certain moments theyโre riveted on you, really listening, they answer questions or say things that as โoffโ.
- Sometimes when youโre trying to talk with them about something important the room goes out of focus and small things come into focus.
Read D.I.Y. Guide to a Sociopathโs Brain and Psyche
Lying is Life: Lies Are Real and Real is Made Up
Lying deceivers arenโt where they say theyโll be: We run into themย when they said they couldnโt come out with us or theyโd be somewhere else.
The invader parasite sociopath has a whole world we arenโt in: We come across them out at a club when they said they were staying home โ and then they ignore us, or tell us we should be at home. They donโt join us but freeze us out of their night on the town.
Signs of Dating a Sociopath Include Lots of Disappointment
Being used by a pathological predator involvesย being stood upย with lame explanations or no explanation. If weโre dating a sociopath they might make a date with us and show up two hours late, or not at all. After that, theyโreย mad that weโre mad, and madder that we ask about it. And more than one of us has heard the sociopath weโre dating say,ย donโt question me,ย orย if youโd trust me everything would be okay.
Trust our gut, weโre experts now. We can see a sociopath a mile away. Look them in the eye. Theyโll know that we know and itโs so delightful to watch them scurry away like the rats they are.
Sociopaths busy themselves โdatingโ us and about 800 other people at the same time. They keep things close toย their vest. They sleep with their phones. Lock their phone. Take their phone into the bathroom. Block us from their Facebook.
Dating-sociopaths often, as in within every single moment, overstep the normal social and personal boundaries we all have.
In addition to being deceptive about who they are and about their intention in our lives, sociopaths donโt heed the natural and normal boundaries we have and that we expect others to have.
They Inspire a Sense Of Unease
Itโs not uncommon to have a creepy feelingย like theyโve been looking through our drawers or catch them looking over our shoulder as we punch in our PIN. There always the quickly shifting and closing of the laptop when we walk into the room.
And, maybe youโve noticed, predator sociopaths take things. Mysteriously, thereโs money missing from our sock drawer, or from that envelope in between the dusty-never-used dictionary and โEast of Edenโ on the bookshelf. โ Especially when theyโre gearing up to exit our lives.
Normal Puts Things In Order
โWhen confronted by the impossible the rational mind will grope for the logical.โ ~ Outlander S1:E1 Sessenach
They Come into Focus for What They Are
One day while my new husband wasย at a meeting, I went out to buy something delicious for his dinner. Surprisingly, I ran into him at my bankโs ATM just around the corner.
He was stunned and trying not to show it. โ Caught red-handed more like. โ Wary, surprised and leering, like a cat that thinks they saw something move, but arenโt sure and so waits and watches for it to happen again, ready to pounce; he asked,ย are you following me??
Feeling ungrounded, my brain spun and grasped for something that made sense of finding him, of his words, and to make thingsย rightย because normal humans need that.
My mind sorted the circumstances: He had no personal bank account here, there was onlyย myย account recently-turned-joint-account. He was supposed to be in another area of town at a meetingโฆ since an hour ago.
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Their Oddness Leaves us Without Words
Out of my mouth came a tiny,ย no.ย โ This was the best answer I could come up with to his very odd question.
The mostย normalย response that made me seem not freaked out, because I did know enough to somehow know that I didnโt want him to know that I knew this was very, very weird.
The thing is: Somewhere in my body I was already afraid of this stranger Iโd married. He too wanted things to seemย okay, so he came into the market next door with me. It felt a lot like that encounter with the sociopath child while I was a child, that day on the playground in 5th grade.
I donโt remember grabbing the grocery items, but I do recall being at the checkoutโฆ Where I paid for our groceries while he fiddled with his phone and pretended to reach for his wallet.
Continuing the charade, he came home with me and then left eight minutes later. Truth gathering, observing as if I were a player in a scene revealed him for what he was.
Dating a Sociopath Doesnโt Mean Thereโs Anything Wrong with Us: Sociopaths Need Good People
Dating a sociopath was a recurring theme in my life. Emphasis onย was. Previously, intermingled with great relationships with real people, I found myself dating a sociopath or about three very briefly; I only married one. โ Recovery tip: Find humor where ever you can.
The more we learn about what a sociopath is and how to recognize them, you may realize youโve known a few. Bleeping onto aย sociopathโs radar screen as a potential target doesnโt meanย thereโs anything wrong with us.
It means thereโs everything right with us. It means weโre good, kind people who trust and love as natural, gorgeous humansย innately do. We have every right to be exactly what and who we are.
Knowing is Key
We just plain, flat-out didnโt know such beasts existed, thereโs no way to conceive of something so beyond normal; sociopaths hide behind this perfectly normal human characteristic of not knowing that evil exists and what it looks like. We canโt know what we donโt know until we know it.
Trust our gut, weโre experts now. We can see a sociopath a mile away. Look them in the eye. Theyโll know that we know and itโs so delightful to watch them scurryย away like the rats they are.
Read 20 Characteristics Of A Con Man Sociopath
Reallyโฆ I did it just yesterday in the mall. Now, we can add knowledge, wisdom, and courage to the mix of our gorgeous selves!
Jennifer Smith, founder of True Love Scam Recovery is an author, public speaker, and international private recovery coach and holds support groups in Los Angeles for those coming out of narcissistic abuse and fraud relationships. Guest contributor to Becoming the Narcissistโs Nightmare. Hear Jennifer interviewed on Mental Health News Radio. Find Jennifer on Instagram @truelovescamrecovery, @truelovescamrecovery_health, and @jennifer_smith_tlsr On Facebook and Pinterest Reach Jennifer at, [emailย protected] โ Jennifer Smith is a pen name.
Written By Jennifer Smith Originally Appeared On True Love Scam
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