Spiritual Death is not death in terms of physicality but the death of false identifications we have with our ego, mind; and body.
“Make no mistake about it – enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretense. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.”
Spiritual awakening or Enlightenment entails being awake to our true nature. And it is no walk in the park because to be aware of our true nature means we need to let go of all the false identifications and limiting beliefs we have.
This process in the spiritual awakening journey is referred to as “Dark Night of the soul” or “Spiritual death”.
It is not death in terms of physicality but the death of false identifications we have with our ego, mind; and body.
When we begin to awaken to our infinite nature, our Ego self-faces the threat of death crisis and tries to do everything in its power to maintain the Status Quo.
But when we begin to move forward on this awakening journey and awaken to our true nature of being an infinite and eternal being the Ego gives in and learns to collaborate with our soul.
Related: The Dark Night Of The Soul
Ego death is a kind of rite of passage wherein we realize that we are the infinite soul and Ego is just an instrument that we use.
And this is the moment of our Spiritual rebirth when we step into our Infinite nature and create our reality from a place of love and compassion.
If you are going through the dark night of the soul right now, hang in there, soon you will realize your Infinite Nature and the cosmic miracle that you are!
“The phoenix must burn to emerge.” – Janet Fitch
I have compiled a list of 12 signs that you are going through Spiritual Death (and Rebirth) :
1) You feel helpless
When you start on the awakening journey, you may feel extremely lonely and face huge cognitive dissonance. This is because all the belief systems and conditionings you had will crumble right before your eyes and you would not know whom to discuss these things with.
But hang in there, once the Ego crumbles, you will realize that you are the same essence that is there in everything else and you will feel more interconnected with the entire Cosmos then you ever felt before.
2) You feel as though you are not living to your fullest potential
When you start this process, you will realize that you are not living your life to your highest potential. Don’t be scared of this feeling of discontent, this is actually the driving force that will guide you on the path that you need to take to become your best possible version.
3) You feel like something is missing in your life
Even though you may have everything in your life that looks good paper:
A good career, relationship, and financial stability, you would still feel like something is missing in your life.
This is because you are not hearing the cries of your soul that is desperately trying to get your attention to wake up to your true nature. When you realize your real self, you will finally find the missing piece of the puzzle.
Related: Awakening Is a Destructive Process
4) You are physically, mentally and emotionally drained
The process of spiritual death and rebirth can be extremely draining and exhausting physically, emotionally, and mentally. This is because our body is undergoing a lot of changes on the energetic level and we might feel headaches, flu, body ache, and other uncomfortable symptoms. But hang in there; this is not an unending process.
5) You feel like you are being pulled in multiple directions
Previously in your life, you may have a clear understanding of who you are, what are your values, and where you are going but the spiritual awakening process will turn your life upside down and make you feel like you are being pulled in different directions.
As you go through the Spiritual death/rebirth process, you will awaken to new possibilities in your life. You will get clarity on who you really are and you will start living your life in alignment with this understanding of your true nature.
6) You are searching for your purpose
You may have your life completely figured out until this point. But as you enter the Spiritual death/rebirth process, the previous purpose and meaning of life will not satisfy you.
You will embark on a journey to find your true calling and you will get there at the end of this Transformational process!
7) You begin to see through your unhealthy coping mechanisms
When you start to awaken, you can see through all the antics of your Ego and how you get stuck in your reactive Ego patterns. You will be able to see through all the unhealthy coping mechanisms that you indulge in like drugs, drinks, or addictive relationships to escape from the pain of not hearing the cries of your soul.
The sooner you face the pain without the unhealthy mechanisms, the sooner you will pass through the dark night of the soul and step in your infinite and eternal nature.
8) You will feel out of place or like you don’t belong anywhere!
You will suddenly feel so out of place and avoid all social events. You would want to spend more time in solitude and contemplation to get in touch with your real self.
Don’t worry, this is a temporary phase. Once, you get aligned with your real nature, you will stop feeling so out of place and get back to your usual outgoing self.
9) You feel overwhelmed
Till now you would have felt so in groove, meeting deadlines, accomplishing goals, and kicking ass but suddenly you will start realizing that these things have lost their charm.
Slowly and gradually, start reorganizing your life. Let go of everything that does not resonate with the real you and start building your life around what looks authentic to you.
10) You want to get out of the “hamster wheel” of your life
You will feel as if you are stuck on a treadmill. Each day you will wake up, go through the grind and sleep only to wake up the next morning with the same feeling of disinterest and apathy.
All these signs are the push that you need to reorganize your life and step off the hamster wheel.
11) You experience intense self-doubt and self-worth issues
During the initial stages of spiritual awakening, you may find yourself doubting every move that you make. This is because the way you used to do things earlier will not make any sense to you now and you have not yet found the courage to do things in a new way that aligns with your soul purpose. Be patient. You will get through this transformation phase and overcome all self-doubt and self-worth issues.
12) You struggle with Insomnia
Throughout this process, you may have worrying thoughts about where you are, where you want to go, and how you will get there. The racing thoughts may just accelerate at night and interfere with your ability to have a good night’s sleep.
Try doing meditation and mindfulness practices to calm down your racing thoughts and improve your quality of sleep.
So, are you going through spiritual death? Let me know in the comments and also feel free to share the article with your friends.