Being a cycle breaker is not an easy thing to be, especially when you are unravelling and trying to put a stop to decades of toxicity and abuse. But breaking the cycle is important, not only for your happiness but also for the generations to come.
You may have seen the term cycle breaker on Instagram and other media. It refers to someone challenging past generational patterns so they can live differently.
A cycle breaker works to free themselves from the chains of dysfunctional family bonds. Their work in turn frees the generations that come after them.
It does not affect the generations before them. No matter how hard you wish it did.
Let me be clear: there is no evidence that your improved mental health will have any impact on your family of origin.
In fact, it might make them double down on their abuse of you. They become more rigid in their patterns and roles, and scapegoat you as the problem.
Related: The Lingering Legacy: Examining The Realness Of Intergenerational Trauma
The Cycle Breaker Fantasy
I’ve noticed a reticence among some doing the work of cycle breaker. They hold onto the fantasy of their dysfunctional family members changing as a result of their hard work.
Instead of focusing on themselves and their healing, they take on a savior role. They are working not for themselves, but to save the family from itself.
“If only they could see the truth that I see, they would understand and change.”
You may have heard that your new ways will have a positive impact on your family. Not so.
Often, families (consciously or not) decide to avoid the truth so they can maintain the status quo. They are terrified of change and make a group effort to suppress the facts you’re trying to reveal.
That’s when they smear your name to people outside the family. They want to make sure you’re not taken seriously so they don’t risk exposure.
Your good intentions will likely never be recognized or returned by these people. If you’re a cycle breaker hoping your family will change, I urge you to let go of that misguided belief.
You take on this responsibility because they’ve primed you since childhood to believe it’s yours to carry. Your purpose in healing must extend beyond yourself because you don’t want to be selfish.
You may also overestimate your power because you needed to believe you had control as a child. You had to believe you had the power to win your parents’ love because you’d die without it.
How To Be Free
But, as long as you think you have the power to change your family, you will never be free. The best thing you can do for your healing is to forget about them and focus on you.
The most powerful thing you can do for yourself and generations to come is stop caring what they do or think. All that energy and focus you’ve been directing toward them to no avail – turn it toward yourself.
And, remember to go easy on yourself while establishing things like boundaries with these people. It’s natural to blame yourself and your imperfect execution for your family’s diabolical response to your healing.
But, that’s the old you taking on things outside your control. It’s the you who wants to take responsiblity for others’ obscene behavior.
It’s the you who expects herself to get things right the first time. Even when she’s had no support or role model and the work is excruciatingly hard and brave.
Related: Escaping the Cycle of Suffering: Why You Should Forgive Your Parents
Instead, give yourself a pat on the back for taking on this challenge no one in your family has the courage to face. And give yourself a hug when you don’t do it perfectly.
And, remember, they won’t change even when you do.
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Written By Laura K. Connell Originally Appeared On Laura K. Connell
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