“Let me tell you something. I am quiet and distant sometimes. I have a hard time voicing what’s going on in my head. I keep it all inside and I lock people out. That’s how I am. I know you have a hard time understanding it and it hurts you. But, it’s not personal. Listen, I am going to hurt you sometimes. I hate that it’s true. But it’s going to happen. But I promise, I will never hurt you intentionally. Never that. I know I’m going to disappoint you. I’m going to let you down. That’s guaranteed. But I’m never going to stop trying to be someone you believe in and trust. You know, you’re going to disappoint me and hurt me too. That’s how life works. We are imperfect people who make mistakes. There will be times when neither of us are lovable. It will be hard, and we will have to work at it. But that’s what real love is. It’s promising that no matter what, our love will never fail. We choose every day to love each other. It’s an action, a choice. So even if we mess up in every way, and I’m certain we will, I am going to love you. You are enough for me. I want nothing more than to protect you and take care of you. I will keep choosing to love you every day that God gives me breath. I wish you would let me do that, just love you:”
*Excerpt from a book I’ll never write*
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