Why Does It Hurt To Love A Narcissist? 7 Reasons That’ll Help You Understand

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Why Hurt To Love Narcissist

To be very honest it’s hard and it hurts to love a narcissist. I know from personal experience. See, Iโ€™ve dealt with several narcissists in toxic relationships in my life โ€“ family members, friends, and even a spouse. One thing I recall vividly from each of those relationships is that I felt a deep, profound love for each of them. I remember in each case the exact moment when it became very clear to me that they did not have the same affection for me, and let me tell you, it was painful.

Can you relate? Do you have aย narcissistic spouse, friend, or family member? If you do, and youโ€™re anything like I was, you canโ€™t help but love them. If youโ€™re being honest, your love for them runs deep down to the core of who you are โ€“ or at least it used to. They are or were a part of you because of it. You love with your heart and soul, with every part of your being.

Sometimes they confuse you, though, becauseย they can be so meanย and so hurtful. No matter how hard you try, you just canโ€™t seem to get through to them. They always seem to have some issue with you and even when you think youโ€™ve finally figured out how to make everything okay with them, they never fail to hurt and disappoint you. Sadly, despite your sincerity and your genuine desire to just make them happy, they canโ€™t even seem to muster up politeness for you โ€“ much less actual love. You might even start to wonder if youโ€™re the problem.

Iโ€™m here to tell you that not only are you NOT the problem but that the narcissist in your life unquestionably IS. The painful truth is that a narcissist just canโ€™t love you back because they are not capable of actual love. In fact, while they might understand the concepts of love and empathy on some level, the truth is that they canโ€™t feel these things because in so many cases, their emotional development stopped during toddlerhood. At best, youโ€™re looking at an emotional preteen.

In any case, this lends to their extremely egocentric nature and their lack of concern for the feelings you and others have. Without intense healing and therapy to address their โ€œcore wound,โ€ narcissists will never be able to grasp the concepts of unconditional love and empathy for others. Unfortunately, I have never heard of a narcissist who has successfully changed โ€“ nor has anyone else Iโ€™ve interviewed or worked with in the past.

Related: 12 Signs You Are Married To A Narcissist

Why Narcissists Have to Hurt You

Why narcissists have to hurt you when they say they love you?

The bottom line here is that when you love a narcissist, you love someone who is not capable of loving you back, and it hurts. It hurts down to your soul, causing a deep ache that is nearly indescribable. Loving a narcissist hurts in a way that most people will never truly understand. And thatโ€™s part of the reason that when you try to discuss your relationship with people who havenโ€™t been there, they never seem to quite get what youโ€™re talking about.

Theyโ€™ll either minimize your concerns or even try to help by offering โ€œstandard relationship adviceโ€ โ€“ which can be quite unhealthy for someone who is dealing with a narcissist in many cases. For example, if youโ€™re feeling unheard in a healthier relationship, the standard advice might be to sit down and have a conversation about it, or even to go to counselling together and work it out. But if you do these things with a narcissist, they will use the opportunity to manipulate you (and the counsellor, given the opportunity), and this can just reinjure you and make you feel even more miserable.

When youโ€™reย dealing with a narcissist, chances are that youโ€™ve put up with your fair share of verbal and emotional abuse and manipulation from them, to say the very least.

Maybe you have a narcissistic parent who favoured your sibling and taught them how to torment you as well. They were in it all together.ย Perhaps you have an aunt, uncle, or cousin who is a narcissist. Or youโ€™reย married to a narcissist, or in some other way involved. But in any case, whoever the narcissist in your life happens to be, you probably already know by now that you absolutely cannot trust them.

A narcissist will never have your best interest at heart, even if theyโ€™re your parent or spouse โ€“ and thatโ€™s because they are completely and only focused on their own needs being met at any given moment. Your needs donโ€™t even come second โ€“ they literally do not concern themselves with what you want or need at all.

Now that you understand all of that,

Here are 10 reasons it hurts to love a narcissist:

1. Repeated Episodes of Abuse and Manipulation

Narcissists are creatures of habit andย they are quite predictable. Sometimes, you might even wonder if they have a narcissist playbook because they all seem to have nearly identical patterns. If youโ€™re dealing with a romantic partner who is a narcissist you might have initially thought they were your soulmate. After all, it seemed that they liked everything you liked, wanted the same things as you and that they totally just โ€œgotโ€ you. If it was a friend or family member, you may have initially assumed they had your best interests at heart or at least that they loved and cared about you unconditionally.

But as time went on, and life happened, you saw that was far from the case as you began to see their true narcissistic colours. Narcissists treat you terribly and will condemn you in a heartbeat if it serves them to do so. Even looking at them the wrong way seems to provoke them into a narcissistic rage. As one of their primary sources of narcissistic supply, you also become an emotional garbage dump for them. They will take out their anger and frustration on you, whether or not itโ€™s related to you, and theyโ€™ll do it over and over again. But you donโ€™t walk away because you love them. It hurts to love a narcissist! Because it is painful to love someone who is abusive to you and who is cruel to you in every way.

Related: Dehumanization: A Narcissistโ€™s Ultimate Manipulation Tool

2. Narcissists Kill Your Dreams

Despite the narcissistโ€™s best efforts, something in you secretly (or otherwise) has desires and things you want to make happen in your life. I other words, you have dreams and wishes like everyone else. Letโ€™s say you want to move to a tropical island after retiring. You plan and scrimp and save to make it happen, but the narcissist will not hesitate to laugh at it and to tell you to stop living in a fantasy world. Even though they donโ€™t support your dreams and just do the opposite, something in you believes them โ€“ maybe you are just being immature and imagining things that are impossible, you think to yourself. Ultimately, theย narcissistโ€™s negativityย is often enough to destroy any hope you have for the future, and that hurts like hell.

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3. The Relationship Is Not Reciprocal

You find yourself giving everything you have to the narcissist and they just take, take, and take. They never give back. They almost literallyย canโ€™tย give back. And if you ask aย narcissist to do you a favor in any way, they will do it only if there is something for them. So, they will do you a favour, but only under certain conditions that benefit them.

They have to get SOMETHING out of it or they most definitely will not do anything for you. And, of course, these conditions are often not ones that you can realistically meet. For instance, if you ask them to watch the child you have to together for an hour so you can go to the salon, then they will only agree to it under one condition. And itโ€™s something much bigger than youโ€™re asking for โ€“ so maybe they want to go on a trip with their friends.

For a week. That means you will be the single parent to the child while they are having fun for a week. And they probably wonโ€™t even call you while theyโ€™re gone, unless they call when they KNOW youโ€™re too busy to deal with them.

Then, theyโ€™ll complain that you never talk to them when they call and say you donโ€™t love them enoughโ€ฆthis leads to yet another episode of you bending over backwards to prove your love for them, all while managing the house and the kid and the pets aloneโ€ฆmeanwhile, theyโ€™re sitting on the beach laughing with their friends about how theyโ€™ve got you wrapped around their little finger.

Related: 5 Emotional Manipulation Tactics Covert Narcissists Use To Trap You In A Relationship

4. Your Needs Always Come Last

You are always having to put theย narcissistโ€™s needs ahead of yoursย and whether you intend to do so or not, you have to put your needs on the backburner. In fact, if this narcissist is a family member, you might not even be fully aware that you are ALLOWED to have needs and wants.

The narcissist makes it very clear they are superior to you, so much so that they literally will not allow you to take care of yourself at all in some cases since their needs and wants come first, always. It is emotionally, physically, and otherwise exhausting, but often you feel guilty for even wanting to take a shower or to go to the doctor when youโ€™re not feeling well. I recall feeling guilty for wanting or needing anything in my own toxic relationships. Hence, it hurts to love a narcissist.

5. Narcissists Are Boundary-Busters

The narcissist does not care if you haveย boundariesย or rules. In fact, they actually feel like youโ€™re not allowed to make choices for your self in many cases. They do not take you or your boundaries seriously at all. They will walk all over you without a second thought, actively and intentionally crossing your boundaries, one by one. Since you love them, you tolerate it โ€“ but you donโ€™t recognize that over time, your boundaries are pushed so far back that you have almost none.

For example, if youโ€™re married to a narcissist and they suddenly become best friends with someone they are clearly and painfully attracted to (and you can tell this based on the way they act around and about this person), whatever yโ€™all are into, you might have a real (and understandable) problem with this.

But instead of understanding that they are crossing an obvious boundary that any married person would have a problem with, the narcissist will tell you to stop being so jealous and insecure, and theyโ€™ll say that if you are going to accuse them of cheating on you, they might as well do it โ€“ despite the fact that you never accused them of anything but just questioned this so-called friendship. (Of course, they also have double standards, so you wonโ€™t be allowed to have a similar best friend.)

Related: Boundary-Busting Narcissist? Hereโ€™s a Non-Toxic Boundary-Management Plan

6. Smear Campaigns and Secrets Spilled

If you were to go against the narcissistโ€™s wishes, or if you go no contact with them, they wonโ€™t hesitate to go out of their way to ruin your reputation, and often your life. They will share private information about you that can be damaging through their social media platforms and they will even contact your boss and tell them reasons why they should fire you.

And when it comes to secrets, no matter how much they swear to keep them under wraps, you have to know that you can never confide in a narcissist and expect confidentiality. Even if you did not let them down and they arenโ€™t going to conduct a smear campaign, they will still leak out your secrets. Especially if those secrets are the key to giving them theย narcissistic supplyย they need in some way. They have no integrity. Therefore, you will want to always confide in someone who you are close to, and that you can trust. A narcissist never fits that bill.

Related: How Your Emotional Thinking Creates Excuses For A Narcissistโ€™s Behavior So You Remain Invested In Them

7. Narcissists are Pathological Liars

Narcissists are known liarsย and will never be truthful about anything unless it happens to benefit them in some way.

Sometimes they lie just for the sake of lying. If youโ€™re dealing with a narcissist, you might as well always assume that whatever they tell you isnโ€™t true โ€“ or at the very least, take everything they say with a grain of salt. Never expect honesty from a narcissistic family member. If you know that they feed you lies all of the time, then you will realize that you cannot trust and believe anything they tell you. Therefore, it hurts to love a narcissist.

The bottom line here is that no matter what, it hurts to love a narcissist. Remember that even if they promise not to hurt you, they most definitely will. They absolutely do not have your best interest at heart, and they have no idea what that even mean

Narcissists not only cannot love you back, but they leave you battered, drained, and very depressed. The best thing you can do for yourself is toย go no contactย and break things off with them or to go low contact if you must remain connected due to sharing kids or business together.

Youโ€™ve got to take care of yourself, my friend, because the narcissist never will. Not in the way that you deserve. What you deserve is to be loved in the same way that you love. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to live in a home where you donโ€™t feel fear and anxiety every time theyโ€™re around โ€“ and even when you know theyโ€™re coming. You deserve to have a life that you love. Please, donโ€™t forget.

These are the reasons it hurts to love a Narcissist. Can you relate? Share your thoughts, share your ideas, share your experiences in the comments section below.

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Written by Angela Atkinson
Originally appeared on Queenbeeing.com and is republished with permission.

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