She thinks that she is not worthy of real love. Because of that guy, who long, long time ago inflicted that stabbing pain.
Or maybe it’s her safety net – she thinks that way so that her mind can stop thinking or expecting blissful love life from any other guy.
But then she regrets her decision!
No doubt she is happy with the loved ones and close friends who love and support her during her highs and lows.
But, she beats her up for her trust issues, not letting any guy come near her, not giving a chance, missing the opportunity to know the true intentions of that guy, or missing a good friendship with that guy.
Then she laments over the situation, again and again, thinking about what if the guy was in love with her and what if he wanted to marry her. She also reflects on herself what if she was a coward to take the initiative or too egoistic to not text him first and on and on.
Whatever be the reason, she ruined a wonderful moment and there is no point crying over spilled milk. The vicious cycle of thoughts in her mind never ends and she never comes out of her hard shell.
But, then she is devastated and enters into a massive state of depression when the guy falls for another girl.
It’s not his fault after all.
How long could have he waited?
After a few such losses, she musters up the courage to stand up for herself. She decides to take a chance and feel things that she never felt before. She is ready to accept and enjoy all journeys.
Although she is still harboring doubts and fears, she is ready for both good and bad days in the journey of love. Now she doesn’t want to end things before it even begins.
But, after all this, she again realizes that it’s too late to finally give him a chance.
That’s how she always ends it before it even begins.