This Time I’d Love You Even Better Than I Ever Did Before

Clock’s ticking.

Birds’ chirping.

Wind’s blowing.

And here we are…starting over and over again. How could you change the trend of my life this way? You came back into my life like a storm- just suddenly came blowing, then it changed my life forever. You came to me by surprise- in an unexpected and perfect time. You gave me the feeling I never thought I could feel and the last thing I know is that it’s the best, best feeling in this hell-like paradise. And every single moment in my life starts belonging to you.

Different emotions are filling those empty corners in my heart.

It’s happiness. It’s bliss. It’s love. It’s liberating.

I cannot imagine myself falling asleep at night and waking up in the morning with your face forming a beautiful silhouette in my mind. I cannot imagine myself when each passing moment- every day, it’s you I’m thinking of. I cannot imagine myself the happiest person alive having you back again. It feels so right. It’s true, we’ve lost so many wonderful moments. We were good friends and we never said what we truly feel about each other and this time let us both feel the love that’s beautiful and new. And this time I love you even better than I ever did before and you will be in my heart until my last breath. Yes, this time, I’m telling you all the things I hid inside my heart for so many years. I loved you. I honestly love you.

Life was funny, then. It was littered with loose ends. It’s a bit happy and a bit messy. Perhaps it was so easy to say goodbye back then. And I thought that when we lose people, we will never get to see them again one more time but I was wrong. Because you’re right here, in front of me now, lovingly whispering my name into my ear. Somehow, some things never change. Even just the way you look at me.

We both know that we are entitled to some happiness. We made a mistake by walking away but that doesn’t mean we have to stop living or that we’re never entitled to another moment of happiness. And here we are, together- once again, making a fresh start. Fixing our lives one more time.

I love you and I always will, My Love. Please know that deep in your heart.

Know in your heart that I love you because you’re a part of me. It’s like your blood is running Crimson into my veins. Your heart beats in mine. I love you so much because of the years we’ve spent apart. I love you unconditionally and immeasurably. It’s like the immeasurable vastness of the universe. I want you to know that I love being in love with you and that won’t really change.

Thank you for everything.

Thank you for finding a way back into my life again and for giving me the immense feeling of happiness. Each day starts with so much joy and ends with something even better. The way you say my name with so much love. The way you hold me in your arms like no one else could harm me. Just hearing the same laughter in your voice, could make me feel safe and comfortable like nothing bad can happen. And it’s the best feeling in the world that no one can ever describe. The way you look into my eyes is digging into my ribs. Every word you say is making my heart thud against my ribs. This is a genuine love, I know. The kind of love that fills my heart with so much happiness.

My Love, I’m so happy that my world is not falling apart anymore. I’m not scared anymore because you are with me once again. I already know how to sleep at night because I feel you next to me, you know that? I’m safe and I don’t feel alone in this limitless world.

Perhaps it’s still early to say I dare not hope for so much. But, let’s find strength in one another. Let us hope together. Let us make up for all the lost moments in our lives- all the times we spent apart.