The feeling of heaviness,
Deep inside myself,
How do I take it out?
Where do I pour it down?
I feel like shouting,
At the top of my voice,
Don’t want any sound coming out, though,
Lest it attracts people s stares.
I don’t like being watched,
Neither do I like being checked,
If everything was alright,
I don’t have an answer for it.
Is everything alright and hunky dory,
In this la la land called my life,
I don’t know what to say,
Coz I don’t know how to find out.
Going back to shouting,
I want it to be voiceless,
Somehow I feel the air that goes out,
Will take my heaviness away.
Wishful thinking I know,
But that’s all I have,
How can I come to a solution,
When I don’t even know the problem? .
Problem, is there really one?
Or is it just in my mind,
People around me say,
I am all gain and no pain.
Is there really no pain?
Is that what my life is?
Or is that what I show others,
And doing a good job at it.
Whatever it is, the shouting works,
Five minutes of it and I feel lighter l,
Have no science to prove it myself,
As long as it works, that’s all I would need.