From family discord to abuse, parental neglect to high performance pressure in school, the original stimuli could have been anything.
Often times though, these have a direct impact on how we see ourselves and process our inner thoughts and feelings.
Now that you’re in the present, you have the opportunity to step back and sit with your past. This kind of depth work might be challenging to do on your own, in which case find a therapist who can help you on your journey. If you have a confidante that you can trust, you could even begin early explorations with that person.
However, always remember that as an HSP, it’s ideal that you have a safe and holding space to give yourself the permission to unravel.
It could also possibly take a long time, the pain subsiding only as you air your wounds and learn to look at them with compassion. Support that can provide you self-reflection and empathy is a must if and when you do choose to take this step.
As an HSP myself, I know how it feels to be faced with a crisis of self-criticism. Let that linger and over a period of time, it can work as negative stimuli while stripping you of all the self-esteem you’ve gathered for yourself.
I hope you’re able to give yourself the inspiration to work around your highly sensitive traits and eventually find a place of calm and comfort.