It happened in a split second and I almost let it negatively change my life forever. Â But I didn’t and I’m so grateful.
I loved him and I trusted him and then he hit me and choked me and sexually assaulted me and cheated on me. Â I was devastated. My world was crashing down around me and I felt betrayed, powerless, worthless and humiliated.
I found a small bit of the feisty me and charged him. Â In Ontario, the police file the charges and he was arrested and put in jail. Â And then the insult upon injury happened – his girlfriend bailed him out of jail!
So it ended. I was unceremoniously thrust into the label of “victim”. Â At the time it satisfied many of my needs. I could cry and whine. Â I could drink excessively. Â I could feel sorry for myself. Â I could be self-destructive. Â I could treat men like garbage. Â I could be a righteous bitch. I could believe that it was okay because I WAS A VICTIM!
I had other negative labels that had been attached by “that guy” – loser, stupid, useless, ugly, fat, etc.  You catch my drift.
There I was stuck with labels and limiting beliefs that were certainly not the kind to live a vibrant and happy life.
I longed for the me that was free and confident and could do anything she set her mind too. Â I wanted to find her again and love her and be her. Â I wanted to fulfill my dreams.
Underneath all the labels I had acquired was “me” and I wanted her back. Â I wanted to write new chapters for my life. Â Chapters that were filled with happiness, brightness, joy, passion and life.
I can confidently declare myself a “Rebel Thriver” who’s loving life every minute of every day.
It is possible to live and love your life after abuse and betrayal.
By Susan Ball
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