You don’t have to deserve a gift. You don’t have to earn it. The whole point is that it is given to you because you are lovely, inherently. You are good enough, just as you are. Because you are here for a reason because what you have to give is special and important and needed by the world. Not what the world has earned, not what others deserve, but the gifts that you bring. We are all giving to each other, deeply and selflessly, simply by existing.
When we connect with our heart’s purpose, our soul destiny, our reason for being on this earth… we are able to give so much more, to ourselves and to others and to the entirety of creation. And so, all of creation gives to us, too. We deserve that. Not because we’ve earned it, because we never could. But because life is beautiful, and so are we.
Sometimes it takes a while to find your purpose. Sometimes, there are challenging steps along the way, suffering that doesn’t seem like a gift at all. Sometimes, that Star disappears behind clouds or guides you into dangerous, dark waters.
I’m not saying this is all going to be Love and Light.
It won’t be.
It will be really, really hard sometimes. For me, writing is a big part of my mission, my purpose. I couldn’t do it at all for nearly two years after the car accident that left my brain injured — I had to work my ass off, every day, to heal and to retrain my brain so that I could handle the cognitive strain again. At first I couldn’t even remember the right words, and just the effort of trying left me reeling. Because of my hard work, I can now do 30-60 minutes per day. And that involves working in spite of severe and constant headache pain, dealing with the memory loss and fuzziness associated with heavy painkillers, setting timers because if I work for too long, my brain can’t handle it and my already-brutal-pain becomes unbearable agony.
It’s worth it. It feels so good and it makes me so happy. Everyone has struggles. Everyone has shit that hurts. Everyone has stuff happen that knocks them off their feet. And that’s OK. It may even be part of your path. Do what you’re meant to do anyways.
Sometimes, part of following our path is becoming the type of person who can. And that’s hard. And it’s scary.
But it is always worth it.
When you are moving in the right direction, things will work better. You will know that it’s right, deep in your bones. You have a gift, that only you can give. We need it.
What is your passion, your purpose, your mission? I would be honoured for you to share it here!From the heart,Kathryn