Love Begins Within Oneself: A Carol Resonates In Heavens

Love Begins Within Oneself A Carol Resonates In Heavens

Arif was not only a decent person but everyone used to who praise him. He was from aroha, and was a clerk in bank. He got married at the age of 25 at that time he had 10000 rupees from which 5000 spent on his marriage.

His wife shehnaz was not only beautiful but she was appraise worthy women. They both used to love each other from the depths of their hearts.

After 3 years he blessed with a beautiful daughter her round eyes and small lips were seem to be from heaven. Her parents had difficult time to come up with a beautiful name to give their daughter an identity.

They don’t used to like suggested name by others. Shehnaz wanted her husband to give their daughter a name.

Arif thought for a brief moment and said “ What’s hurry in giving a name to her?”. Shehnaz was concerned about giving her a name. “I don’t want my daughter to be with no name and what should I call her for now?, Her face showed dolour expression.

“For now, You just call her baby”. Arif said and one more thing (He continued) wait for a day or 2 I will buy a Urdu dictionary and go through it and I’m sure I’ll come up with a good name for our daughter”.

“I haven’t heard anywhere that people search from dictionary to give their child a name”. Shehnaz Said.

“No they do, My friend Shahid did he founded a name for her daughter ummm what was that name ah! (Nikhat) .
“What it means?”. Shehnaz asked

“Aroma” He said,“Indeed it’s beautiful”

Arif wife watched her daughter for a moment and said “I don’t want an old name for my daughter go and buy a dictionary”.

Arif smiled “But I don’t have money”. “Look for a purse in my drawer I have saved money you can take out desirable amount”

Arif went to market and visited few book shops for a good dictionary and then he bought one with decent price as he was returning home with a dictionary in his hand as he was looking through pages someone called his name. He turned and saw his friend Shahid.

He told him to have a tea at nearby dhaba. During conversation Shahid came to know that Arif got blessed with a daughter then he asked “What is her name?”.

Arif took a glance of dictionary which was red in colour and said “We haven’t gave our daughter a name yet”. Arif said “There isn’t any paradoxical thing in between and there are many name (Amreen,Gul,Naz, Sana) give her any one of them”

“That’s rubbish”. Arif said
“May God give her a long life” Shahid said as he hugged him.

Arif continued his way to home and start wondering that there is nothing to do who were the name. He thought that he must throw dictionary in a well and tell his wife that the name is not that much important the only thing matter is their daughter life and she must pray for her.

As he was drowning in deep ocean of his thoughts his hear started to beat irregularly. He stopped and thought that it’s because of his stress over a name and brushed it off. He continued his way to home where something was waiting for him. A mishap was betided.

He saw a horde of women at his house and his face went blank cause of unawareness of situation as he moved further the words knocked on the doors of his eardrums horrible enough to rip his soul a part. “I think her daughter is about to die in a moment”.

One of them said to other. Arif face went pale and with adrenaline he rushed toward his room as his wife screamed from misery. Arif found her daughter dead in his mother arms. Arif felt blank and completely out of his mind that moment he couldn’t figured out what happened.

He went to other room with feeling of being shattered and sat on his chair staring into empty abyss of his heart into nothingness it felt like he is still searching for a beautiful name for her daughter.

After few hours Arif was still there staring into nothingness and then Shahid put his hand on his shoulder and said This is the time for bier.

Arif felt like a stone at that moment as he put her daughter in grave and put a dictionary with her. People start murmuring and gossiping some of them thought it might be Holy Qur’an but how can a person burry a Qur’an as it will be consider as kufr. No one said a word to him as he returned home he found his wife sick. Arif didn’t slept that night.

Next day Shahid came to him with a doctor and told Arif to get his wife checked. He agreed after that doctor gave him another bad news a hammer of misery pounded on his heart as he said your wife is not going to survive anymore.

Few hours went by Shahid was still there with his wife sitting beside her and feeding suddenly his wife start breathing heavily and said “Arif I’m going to die but you must keep faith in God cause I know after me there is someone else another women who will replace me”.“I can’t imagine a world without us and it would be worthless indeed, I’ll die”. Arif said

“No you won’t (She inhale a huge breath) May God gives you a long life”. With her last words the soul left the cage of her body and she laid there motionless”.

At morning there went a funeral and Arif buried her wife and his hope of life with her.
He came home and glanced at clock it was 8:30 .

He ran toward station because he didn’t wanted to missed it. He reached plat form and heard the siren of incoming train. He told him self that when it will get near I will end this suffering as soon as possible.

As he took his steps toward subway he saw a silhouette of men standing between subway to end his life. Arif rushed toward him as train was about to his that men and pushed him on the other side. “Are you commuting a suicide?,

What wrong with you?”. Arif said with empathic but loud tone. “ I’m so tired and hopeless. There is nothing to live by nothing to live for, I have lost a meaning of everything”.

“Listen! My friend I know how you’re feeling but there is something different in pain and misery it demands bravery and will from a human.

Come with me…

“Without dolor and misery happiness is abyss of nothingness, life is worth suffering for to live it to fight for it one must find a meaning for life when there is none for one but one for others”.

-By Wajib Nabi

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