She was victimized by this man for too long. He drained her of her essence and destroyed her to the core. And she will be a mess for a long time now, but that’s okay. She will bury herself in her bed and cry often, and thats alright too. She has the right to doubt people, especially those who try to enter her life and offer free help. She will suspect every person wanting to connect with her. But can she help it? He turned her into this person. Her self-worth was almost non-existent. But she has it in her to heal and be happy once again.
Her dreams have changed. Love no longer had a place in her life. Those were her old dreams before she knew him, which were shattered irreparably. And she knew she would be scared to give her heart to someone again because her perception of love was altered completely– it was no longer beautiful in her mind.
Love felt like a pain because of him, and it would be that way for some time now. He made her hate the experience of love. Through his manipulations and emotional trauma, he made her want to run away from love. She wouldn’t be able to fall in love again, not unless she found her old self.
She never got the chance to experience true, selfless love, and enjoy the safety and support that comes from a place of genuine care. Her image of love was one of neglect, loneliness and lots of pain– a picture far from the true nature of love. It will take a lot of time and healing before she can trust someone again and open her heart to love. But on the other side of doubting and resisting is acceptance. Because true love finds a way to enter your life, it doesn’t give up.
Right now, she needs to be alone. She needs as much time as she can have to heal her wounds, reformat her thoughts, and understand her feelings and set them right. She needs to make sense of right and wrong. This is her second chance at life, she has to learn to live it well first.
But one thing is for sure– she will win this battle. She will emerge a stronger woman who never gives up. No matter how broken she feels, she will find that last speck of strength to fight for herself. She will be a pillar of strength, as strong as a storm-ravaged night that survived.
In the end, the loss is the psychopath’s, who tried so hard to destroy her but failed, nonetheless.
The truth is that her life can never be the same as it was before the abuse. But her experiecne has helped her develop a down-to-earth view of life, and taught her numerous things. It enlightened her, giving her a thousand reasons to be happy with life. She is aware that she has just one chance at life, and she won’t waste her precious time wallowing in self-pity, and accept nothing less than the absolute best.
You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. – Cayla Mills
May you never have to experience the life-shattering feelings that fill you when you are broken by an emotional psychopath…but if you have terrible experiences to share, join the discussion below. We will be definitely reply back.