How Life Changes After Being Broken By An Emotional Psychopath-

Life Changes After Being Broken By Emotional Psychopath

She was victimized by this man for too long. He drained her of her essence and destroyed her to the core. And she will be a mess for a long time now, but that’s okay. She will bury herself in her bed and cry often, and thats alright too. She has the right to doubt people, especially those who try to enter her life and offer free help. She will suspect every person wanting to connect with her. But can she help it? He turned her into this person. Her self-worth was almost non-existent. But she has it in her to heal and be happy once again.

Her dreams have changed. Love no longer had a place in her life. Those were her old dreams before she knew him, which were shattered irreparably. And she knew she would be scared to give her heart to someone again because her perception of love was altered completely– it was no longer beautiful in her mind.

Love felt like a pain because of him, and it would be that way for some time now. He made her hate the experience of love. Through his manipulations and emotional trauma, he made her want to run away from love. She wouldn’t be able to fall in love again, not unless she found her old self.

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She never got the chance to experience true, selfless love, and enjoy the safety and support that comes from a place of genuine care. Her image of love was one of neglect, loneliness and lots of pain– a picture far from the true nature of love. It will take a lot of time and healing before she can trust someone again and open her heart to love. But on the other side of doubting and resisting is acceptance. Because true love finds a way to enter your life, it doesn’t give up.

Right now, she needs to be alone. She needs as much time as she can have to heal her wounds, reformat her thoughts, and understand her feelings and set them right. She needs to make sense of right and wrong. This is her second chance at life, she has to learn to live it well first.

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But one thing is for sure– she will win this battle. She will emerge a stronger woman who never gives up. No matter how broken she feels, she will find that last speck of strength to fight for herself. She will be a pillar of strength, as strong as a storm-ravaged night that survived.

In the end, the loss is the psychopath’s, who tried so hard to destroy her but failed, nonetheless.

The truth is that her life can never be the same as it was before the abuse. But her experiecne has helped her develop a down-to-earth view of life, and taught her numerous things. It enlightened her, giving her a thousand reasons to be happy with life. She is aware that she has just one chance at life, and she won’t waste her precious time wallowing in self-pity, and accept nothing less than the absolute best.

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. – Cayla Mills

May you never have to experience the life-shattering feelings that fill you when you are broken by an emotional psychopath…but if you have terrible experiences to share, join the discussion below. We will be definitely reply back.

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  1. I can not put into words how much your writing has touched me in every aspect. It is more than beautifully written and well put together. I think I felt almost every emotion while reading this. It has touched me in a way that is unimaginable. It definitely inspired me and motivated me even more than I am now. Not to even look back nor feel guilty. To know I wasn’t really going crazy or insane that I wasnt really loosing my mind at all it was just someone else’s sick torturous twisted game that I kept playing without knowing and had never saw coming. To know I didn’t actually loose myself, that I can and will find my true self again as long as I keep that one person out of my life I to will recover. To know and feel the real level of pain I have felt, endured and still feel from the betrayel, hurt and just plain lose of self all together was one thing but to actually know what the cause of all of it was from is another. To know my judgement was that off and what I failed to see was enough to make me more then sick. Once past that part of realization, thats where I’m at now just made me more determined and want to get my life back to what I once knew it as and my true self back even a little more. I feel like there is a new found freedom for myself and im finally feeling happy and definitely less stressed. How peaceful my life is again today, how my beautiful son can just fall right to sleep at night and even how I can lay my own head down at night and fall so fast asleep is all just because.. this time was different for me. I had no contact, I educated myself, I had enough, I did right, I took a stand this time not just for myself but for my only son as well. Just because this time I did not and will not return back to one place I once called home and have raised my small child in. It is a blessing in itself how quiet, loving and patient my life and my son’s life are now. My past has been a long drawn out painful & hurtful one of all sorts but I am entirely grateful that it has opened my eyes to the world in a whole new light. Your writing is also a true whole heartedly honest reminder for me of my past that ill forever keep with me. I will overcome it all, maybe not today but one day at a time. This time I am more determined then I have ever been before. Its like an awakening and an escape I’ve never saw coming but always dreamt of. I will keep your writing in close hands for my times of weakness since he will forever be in my life bc of our child together. I will reread this many times I’m sure of it and will remind myself that I am doing the right thing and need to keep looking forward towards a brighter future not my hidden darkened past that is at times still haunting me. Again, thank you for sharing this it has made me feel like I can be an even stronger woman and mother. It also made me feel understood since a lot of the time I feel misunderstood or like no one else knows what I really feel like or been through bc it is and was the hardest thing for me to even put together and really grasp since there were so many different dynamics of it all and sometimes to much for me to relive and talk about. It really is a sad situation for all of us that is or has went through this. Something that I think needs more attention, more awareness and should be brought to light more because I can only imagine how many other people are still living feeling stuck, scared, ALONE and as ashamed as I was and unwilling to talk about it with anyone else fearing it was myself, or just convinced I deserved it. We don’t play victim, we are the victim! I wish they would talk and she’d light on abuse more often. Maybe then some ppl would be more educated on it and would know the signs and what to really look for. After so long of being abused you really can not make an accurate thought, it starts to become okay and then the normal even if it wasn’t. Had I been aware or even knew more about emotional abuse and narcissism maybe I could have stopped myself from being tormented and belittled for the past 6 years of my life. Hopefully in the years to come there will be more light shed on abuse and those two topics exspecially. The word needs to get out there more of what it is and like to live it. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Very meaningful to me. You’ve inspired me! Thank you, again.

    1. I too can’t put into words how your story is exactly the life I’m living this very moment. As I sit in LOUD silence, Thank God it’s started to rain. Take that roar of the silence outta my head for just a little while please! My only other escape is my music. Just February last year after almost 8 years of marriage I learned or I should say, It was the beginning of my journey of learning this whole new person; that for the past 6 1/2 years was my amazing, kind, just outstanding man. To now this down right inhuman person he’s become. This is why I’m so confused. My husband was never not one sign of narcissistic in any way, shape or form. And from the bottom of my heart. Pls trust that I’m not giving him not one tiny lil bit of credit!!! He deserves nothing!! When meth came into the picture I started to see a slight change in him but just shrugged it off. About 5 months into us both at the time 2017 smoking that trash. He called me outta my name for the 1st time in 6 1/2 years. I knew I was done with it. Just wish I would’ve been aware of narcissism. By the time it popped up on my Pinterest page, I’d already lost myself. I have always had a rough go at life. Always being victimized even from early as age 6/7 so I just thought it was just gonna be another one of those beat me down physically relationships. Not meaning for that to sound like I’m oking it by all means. Just meant like whoop-py here we go again. Boy was I wrong. As I’m laying here barricaded in my room, thanking God for the sound of the rain pouring down. Can feel and see my heart pounding so hard, it’s literally moving my body. What’s left of me. I’ve lost over 30 pounds and 22” of my hair melted like cotton candy off my head when I showered. I was surpassed my limit of knowledgeable decisions on my own. March 21st 2018 was the 1st time I’d ever had a nervous breakdown. I kept myself locked in my room for 4 days until I finally gave in and called my mom. She’s all I have left. I mean I’ve got my kids boy 27 girl 25 but I don’t wanna burden my kids anymore because of my sorry choices in men. They’d seen and heard enough in their lives already until almost 9 years ago. They too thought I’d finally found a good man. Job, home, his own car. Just everything I’d ever wanted and had never had in them so called past relationships. Oh no it just stopped raining here comes the huge butterflies in my stomach and the silent roar in my head. Jesus why me? I’d give the shirt off my back to a stranger. I don’t understand what I’ve done so wrong in my life to treated like someone’s punching bag 🙁 can I pls finish this later? I’m absolutely exhausted. He’s high as a kite and while he’s content. I need sleep. I’m sorry if I bored ya to death. So much more I really need to talk about If I may please. And you vice versa kk. I’m dosing off now. My body is worn. I need your HELP I have taken a stand and I hope I get a chance to share it with you and hopefully you can come a part of it too. It’s all through music. God bless. Ttys?

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