Insecurity: If Only You Loved Me As Much As I Loved You

But society and his life experiences has taught him that his needs are too much for anyone. So even though he desperately craves closeness, he anticipates abandonment.

We often behave in ways that cause others to see ourselves as we believe ourselves to be.

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Kevin’s anticipation of rejection is so powerful that he unconsciously behaves in ways that creates this very reaction in his partner through his anger and negativity. He pushes her in various ways until she pushes back. This creates a relationship that provides Kevin with a relationship that confirms his self-view.

While Kevin’s insecurity can seem endless, and while his need for “constant” contact and reassurance can feel unreasonable to Katrina, neither of these are actually true. Kevin’s insecurity is maintained because both he and Katrina do not understand each other’s needs.

They have yet to focus on we-ness. If Katrina understood that contact with Kevin during the day served her as much as it served him, their relationship would transform. It would require her to overcome her “independent” tendencies and make herself available to Kevin during the day. Paradoxically, Kevin’s need to check and recheck her emotional availability would diminish. This is the Dependency Paradox of Love.

But fixing the relationship isn’t a one-sided fix. Kevin has to learn to happily respect Katrina’s need to get off the phone quickly, which helps her to manage her anxiety about feeling trapped. This creates the respect and space required for Katrina to heal her childhood wounds as well.

This we-ness would ease Kevin’s belief that their time apart was a sign of future abandonment, while alleviating Katrina’s belief that she’s a babysitter instead of a wife.

Healing their relationship requires growth for both partners. To face the anxiety of doing something counter-intuitive to their nature.

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Instead of pulling away, Katrina would move physically and emotionally closer. She would shower Kevin with “I missed you today,” or “Come here, angry pants, and give me a kiss. I’ve been waiting for it.” Partners like Katrina tend to laugh at such a “needy” suggestion. But this is the best way for her to help Kevin overcome his childhood injuries and change him from feeling threatened by rejection to feeling loved.

Kevin would have to make changes as well. He would have to recognize his hostile and negative behavior and apologize to Katrina when he attacks her. He would have to take responsibility for his part of the relationship problems and work in ways that lead him to see her loving behavior as loving, not a precursor to rejection. He would have to learn to respect her need for space and not see it as a sign of abandonment, but merely a need that keeps her happy.

With such a powerful shift in the way they treat each other, both Katrina and Kevin can stop pushing each other away and finally become closer.

Do you think you might be like Kevin? Do you agree with the following statements:

  • “I take better care of others than myself.”
  • “I often feel like I give and never get anything back.”
  • “My partner is selfish and self-centered.”

Like Kevin, you may have needy tendencies that cause you to idealize others, but also have strong doubts of your own value and worthiness of your partners love. As a result, you may constantly seek approval and reassurance that you are loveable and won’t be rejected.

If your partner is emotionally unavailable like Katrina, then you are dating someone that reinforces your insecurity. If we have negative self-views, we often are attracted to partners who undermine our feelings of self-worth. If we believe that we require more closeness than our partners can provide, we often fall for those who push us away.

The way to break the chain of unhealthy relationships requires personal growth.

It requires you to stand in the threshold of your insecurity so you can learn how to work with it. Learn the triggers and patterns that cause you to behave in ways that push your partner away.

It’s important to see the fights not as a sign of incompatibility, but as a signal that the relationship needs growth to occur.

That both your partner and you need to find new horizons of communicating. To discover new ways of understanding each other, so when the inevitable problem happens, you understand each other well enough that both of you can repair the relationship.

Love is often seen as effortless, but that is a lie. Lasting love requires profound personal growth. It requires self-knowledge beyond what any life coach could offer. Love is the biggest people growing machine there is.

So my question to you is, are you going to continue to accept creating relationships that reinforce your deepest fears? Or are you going to stand up and create a deeply connected relationship that heals your past traumas, giving you love so powerful that you’ll feel happier, sexier, and more secure than you’ve ever felt in your life?

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Kyle Benson
I've had the privilege of working with men and women on a wide range of relationship issues. I've helped individuals:Leave toxic relationships to find a healthy relationship that makes them feel calm, grateful for the person in their life, and deeply valued by their partner Close the emotional distance between partners so they feel deeply connected to each otherResolve relationship conflict, leading the couple to become closer and more loving than they ever thought imaginable Remove sexual anxiety to create intensely passionate and longer-lasting sexUse problems in the relationship as catalysts to help individuals grow into their highest potential (and become more awesome lovers)Our coaching sessions are tailored towards reaching solutions that improve your relationship quickly. Read more about my coaching programmes here, Relationship Coaching or Email me at [email protected]
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