I’m Sorry for Being Crazy Even Though You Treated Me Like Shit

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Sorry for Being Crazy Treated Me Like Shit

“She didn’t belong anywhere and she never really belonged to anyone. And everyone else belonged somewhere and to someone. People thought she was too wonderful. But she only wanted to belong to someone. People always thought she was too wonderful to belong to them or that something too wonderful would hurt too much to lose. And that’s why she liked him – because he just thought she was crazy. “
โ€• C. JoyBell C.

To begin with, I want to sincerely apologize for my weird and nutsy behavior of late. Honestly, I have no idea whatโ€™s wrong with me, and why Iโ€™m being crazy all the time!

Initially, I thought that it was your demeaning treatment of me that compelled me to behave this way. But I must have been wrong. Now I realize that it was me who was at fault all along. And I couldnโ€™t be more ashamed for thinking otherwise all this while. Iโ€™m thoroughly disappointed in myself.

Now that I think about it, Iโ€™m pretty sure that my chronic hormonal imbalance is to be blamed for my out of line behavior on so many occasions. Do you remember the incident where I asked for your opinion regarding the flaws in my body? You readily pointed out my imperfections to me! And I was so mad and upset! But I feel so embarrassed now. It was so unlike me to be so sensitive. I should have been more thick-skinned, even around my person, whom I trusted enough to let my guard down.

I want to say sorry about the time I got pissed off and lost my temper when I saw you exchanging numbers with random women at the pub. I still remember how very insecure I felt about that particular woman who looked a lot like me, only a tad prettier.

How silly of me to be hurt even though you openly disrespected me in front of our friends and so many strangers! But, itโ€™s my fault, I should have been uncaring of such insolent behavior on your part.

Do you remember the time I left the room almost in tears when you poked fun at my clothes at the party? What was I thinking?! I was probably looking like a clown and you just laughed at me along with your buddies- such a spontaneous reaction on your part. As usual, I was being an emotional fool.

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Come to think of it, I should have realized sooner that you werenโ€™t deliberately causing me pain, your behavior came very naturally to you. You were just being real and straightforward. It was the normal thing to do under such circumstances. How immature was I?! Iโ€™m genuinely thankful that you didnโ€™t lock me up or send me off to a mental clinic for my senseless and inappropriate behavior, time and again!

โ€œButterflies were small and light. And very magic sensitive. For some reason I made them feel safe and they gravitated to me like iron shavings to a magnet. They ruined my ferocious badass image, but you would have to be a complete beast to swat butterflies.โ€
Ilona Andrews

Today, I chide myself silently for having hoped that someday, you will understand why I behaved the way I did all those times. Iโ€™m sorry for expecting a sorry from you on so many occasions. Iโ€™m sorry for thinking that someday, youโ€™ll love my imperfections.

Undoubtedly, I act the craziest when I crave for some respect from you! I reiterate, I am sorry, for being crazy and needy.

Do you recollect the time I brought up the issue of your behavior affecting me badly and hampering my confidence? I am aware that it was very absurd for me to even have such a discussion with you. It was the right thing you did by ignoring everything I said. Because the fault lies in me, not you. I have been the ridiculous and unreasonable one all along! So, please continue shutting your eyes to my concerns.

Iโ€™m sorry for making you feel like you were walking on eggshells around me all the time! To put it simply, Iโ€™m just trying to apologize for each and every time my behavior was out of line. And I can only hope that the next time you treat me like your doormat, youโ€™re able to feel what I go through.

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Iโ€™ve come to believe that itโ€™s my fault for expecting respect, acceptance, and thoughtfulness from you. How could you show such sensitivity towards me? After all, Iโ€™m the one who is fundamentally flawed, moody and downright crazy!

Itโ€™s not your fault. Iโ€™m sorry for expecting a man who treats me like home. Even though Iโ€™m the one you could always rely on; the one who comforted you when you were upset; the one you came to when you craved intimacy.

The truth is, you know how much I loved you and took me for granted. But itโ€™s my fault for expecting better treatment. So, Iโ€™m sorry.

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Lastly, sorry for saying sorry over and over again.


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