I am here now

I am here now

My power in personal branding frees me to speak my voice, embrace my vision, and live my true mission.   I am happy living privately in my headspace, and I identify as an introvert at heart, eighty percent of the time.   I hold my ideas, stories, and truths quietly in my mind until I am close to completion, or at least seventy edits into the process, before I share with anyone.  I am somewhat of a perfectionist.   As a neuroscientist and writer,  navigate between stories and words as if I am traveling in my own plane in the clouds through fact, fiction, memory, mis-memory, rain, sunshine, and rainbows.  I am a highly sensitive person, I feel, feel too much, and it takes me time to process the world, to make sense of my senses.  Studying the human brain, I was frozen by the complexity, where I could not wrap a single conclusion neatly in a Christmas bow.   It left me with mountains of doubt, questioning.  How can I even begin to answer the simplest of questions?  It seemed the more I understood, the less I was certain of, and digging deeper left me with greater wonder.   I hid from the world, where my solitude and personal exploration grew into social isolation, a series of rainy days.   

A a year ago, if you were to Google me, you would not find me.  I had no social media presence.  I was invisible.  I mistook privacy and introversion for invisibility.  Introversion and invisibility are two very different words and experiences, and I needed to change the feeling of being invisible for my survival.   I spoke with Kathy Yeu, and something opened inside of me, a little release, weighing heavy on my heart, lead, ice, or coal, loosening the tension of fear, doubt, and failure.   Opening me to the self-compassion of being imperfectly perfect.  As an artist I had to take the leap and risk sharing my voice, reliable and unreliable, with every intention to speak my truth.  I need to allow the scientific truth to emerge organically.  

My visibility here and now in the present moment reflects the core of myself – a living, breathing, and experiencing being.  It breaks my silence, frees my voice, opens my heart, unites me with community, and connects me with great minds.   It is a leap of faith where I say to you,  hello world, I am here now. 

I am here now

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