Repressing, avoiding, hiding and resenting unhappiness is the only really true “sin” here, for it is directly harmful to our well-being both in the short and long term. The truth is that you are absolutely allowed to feel deeply miserable and unhappy. This doesn’t mean dramatizing your unhappiness, using your unhappiness to self-sabotage, or using it to self-pity, but realizing that you are allowed to feel sad means realizing that sadness is a normal (and in many cases) necessary human emotion. Without it, many of the greatest lessons of life would never be learned.
In my experience, the greatest lesson to learn as a sensitive person is that we are not who we think “we” are. Although our sensitivity might make us feel special or victimized on the surface, deeper than that, past our sensations, past our thoughts, past our memories, is the truth of who we really are. And this glimmer of truth at the very least brings hope, and at the very most shatters your entire self-concept bringing immense liberation, restfulness, and peace.
So how do we find this glimmer of truth? How do we finally find a place to call “home”; a place where we belong, a place where we can rest? The problem here lies in our desire to search. We try to use the mind to cure the mind, but it doesn’t work that way. What we can do instead is to give ourselves permission to purely experience our suffering, our pain and emptiness – not to dramatize, hate, hide or suppress it – but to consciously feel it.
Consciously experiencing pain without resisting it in any way, shape or form reveals a beautiful miracle: suddenly the pain is not there, suddenly it disappears, suddenly it evaporates in the light of consciousness. The only way you will believe this is by experiencing it first for yourself. But what will you discover after the pain is gone? Silence; a deep, pure, loving silence that exists behind every emotion, thought, belief and sensation. This silence is also known as “God,” “divinity,” “life force,” “nirvana,” “eternity,” “oneness” and “consciousness.” This is the truth of who you are – and darkness paradoxically opens a doorway to experiencing that light.
Your sensitivity is just as much a gift as it is a curse because it allows you to experience this reality more readily than others.
Once you realize the truth: that your identity (sense of self) is an illusory barrier that unnecessarily prevents you from experiencing the limitlessness that is “you,” you start learning how to laugh at yourself again.
But this often requires practice. De-programming your mind doesn’t always happen in an instant.
As I explored in a previous article, six of the most powerful questions you can ever ask yourself include the following:
- Am I this emotion?
- Am I this thought?
- Am I this physical sensation?
- Am I this circumstance?
- Am I this body?
- Am I this personality?
Yes, these elements all belong to you, and you experience them but are they really “you”?
Who are you? Are you a transient emotion that comes and goes, a thought that rises and ceases, or a body and personality that ages and changes? Can something so transient and ephemeral really be you? If you are none of these things then, who are you?
Deep, constant self-inquiry will reveal that who you truly have no name, no form, no identity, and no limits.
You are everything and you are everyone.
When you allow depression to be your teacher you will see the hidden gift that is has been trying to give you all along: that your true home, your true liberation has been here all along, within you. You just needed to experience the lie and hopelessness of division to uncover the truth and liberation of what can never be divided.
Source – LonerWolf.com