Everything Happens for a Reason
I pity myself right now at this moment, for a ton of tears due to the fathom I made to distance myself from you without even thinking what might happen for the future that my Ego will be facing.
In a way like this, I am too far from you but I know itโs my fault.
In a way like this, that there were a lot of chances to talk to you but still I did not.
In a way like this, I wanted to speak out my feelings but still, I shut up.
In a way like this, my heart dictates my mind to remember you but still, I insist.
In a way like this that all I did is to share about the moments, we’ve created and ended up regretting.
In a way like this, you choose to have connections with me but my Id demands to get away from you.
In a way like this, that all I can do is to treasure those many unforgettable situations and end up hurting myself.
In a way like this, that I can’t help myself searching for the peace of mind I wanted to find for so many long times and end up not continuing.
In a way like this, that I still hope to meet you. But, I knew in the very beginning that you had already your own life to start with.
In a way like this, that I wanted to find someone to be happy but end up comparing to you.
In a way like this, I end up making these nonsense stupid mistakes to find a new life for me to know who really I am.
I felt sorry for my Id not fighting those chances that,
You have given me,
You have shown me,
You have taught me,
You have treated me.
I wanted to confront you during those days, but due to the aspects that I am thinking that you might be overwhelmed for my confessions and make your self-esteem so high and conclude that we might have a chance to be together and will continue to fight for your feelings then end up with the false hope that we can never be. Because for me you are “A memory from the past that will never be forgotten”
Indeed, all I can do now is to believe in a statement that states “Everything happens for so many reasons”.
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